Diamond: The Promise

Chapter 27 "Now that you are dead it hurts"

~Ethan~

25/12/19

I didn't like the image I saw on my reflection when I glanced for last time at the mirror. I was well dressed up, wearing slacks and a shirt as Esther had practically threatened me so that I would dress like the boy from a good family and education I wasn't. Sure she also 'advised me' to behave politely in front of her friends that were coming over for a Christmas lunch but that was something I couldn't promise her.

I was determinate to ruin this first formal lunch with her new perfect family.

God, how much I hated that woman... I didn't understand how such an evil being could have gave live to someone as wonderful as Iria. I went to her room when I left mine, I knew for a fact Iria didn't feel comfortable with all the formal parties with important people her mother threw, in which she demanded her daughter to be perfect.

That's why when I entered Iria's room and saw her sat on the floor with her back leaned against the bed I just thought about how to cheer her up, the plastic cup on her nightstand gave me an idea. I grabbed the cup before taking a seat next to Iria, she wore a green dress that reached her knees, it was elegant and expensive though somehow childish too.

However, it suited Iria either way.

She turned her head to me for first time when I started using the cup to make the rhythm of that song she liked.

"I've got my ticket for the long way round, two bottle of whiskey for the way and I sure would like some sweet company..." I managed to look at her when I sang the following verse. "And I'm leaving tomorrow, what do you say?"

I enjoyed the way her gaze lit up when she watched this improvised attempt to take a laugh out of her. She chuckled when I sang what somehow encouraged me to keep the cup's rhythm.

"When I'm gone, when I'm gone..." We started singing at unison, Iria had a nice voice that harmonized perfectly with mine. "You're gonna miss me when I'm gone" Iria reached the high notes in that verse, she grabbed the cup from my hand to continue with the rhythm by herself.

I didn't stop this little street show, I kept singing with her at the rhythm of those cups until the song ended.

You're gonna miss me by my hair
You're gonna miss me everywhere, oh
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone

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1/4/24

I looked down to my chest and just found the fucking cross necklace hanging on my neck.
The necklace of a sinner, was how I called it in my mind. It first belonged to my mother, now it was mine. It just touched sinners as an exception of Coraline, during the years she carried it she cleaned the bloody record the necklace had seen.

Blood... it was the only thing I saw when I pressed the sharp metal against my forearm. The pain hit me for a second until I remembered what it all meant. A reminder, an easy way to end with everything that assured me that all this hell could be stopped if the wrong suicidal idea crossed my mind. It was the coward way to face life, the wrong mindset to have and of course the injustice personified. How could I make the only person who still cared about me suffer?

It would be so unfair for Iria if I chose the easy way, that's why my disturbed mind settled for some cuts and nothing more for he moment but...

What about how unfair life has been to me?