In Dan's 5/26 liveshow, he talked about how he admires how Jim [Chapman] and Tanya [Burr] had their lives on track and how "aspirational" they both were to him. Dan proceeded to talk about how he wished he had something like that. Almost makes one wonder if he meant that for a healthy and connected relationship with Phil...?
[a friend asked me to write this one aight im not a buttface. short and sweet as well, didnt mean to disappoint, soz]
"Phiiiil" I whined to my flatmate as I stumbled into the lounge. Phil was hard at work on his computer at the table, fingers flying on the keyboard. Most likely working on the book. "Yes, babe? Oh, you look comfy," Phil said, taking his eyes off the screen to look at my horn hoodie. I buried my chin deeper into the soft fabric, trying to hide my blush, but Phil had already seen. He gave a deep chuckle, and stood up from the table to go over and give me a hug.
I pulled my arms out of the hoodie pocket to wrap them around Phil. My best friend gave the best hugs, always. No one can truly compare. Phil pulled away to hold his arms around me still, peering into my eyes to see what's up. "What did you want to talk to me about?" he asked kindly.
I gave a small pout... that'll do the trick. "Y'know how we went to visit Tanya and Jim?" I asked. My voice was so small and quiet, but I was afraid to say anything to not insult Phil. I knew he would understand what I was getting at, but I still felt bad. "Yeah! What about it?"
"Well, y'know how they cook together and clean together and do exercise together?" I asked.
"Yeah?"
"Y'know how they practically have their lives in order?"
"Oh, Dan... what are you getting at?"
"Well... I was just, just thinking a bit... can we have that too?"
It was a timid question that sounded so loud in Phil's ears, I could tell.
Phil sat down. Was he taken aback? I couldn't tell, and didn't really want to gind out either. But he responded anyways.
"Yeah, I know... they both seem to have everything planned out and they're perfect roll models. I guess maybe we both have too much to handle right now to make that work."
I gave a small, sad smile to Phil, and sat down next to him, rubbing circles into the back of his hand. He smiled a tad as well, before pulling me into an embrace. "Although I find it lovely that you're trying to model after what perfection Jim and Tanya have together, you shouldn't be doing that. Don't compare yourself, and instead, use that energy to improve yourself. We have so much more going on in our lives than they do anyways... planning for the book and tour, the radio show, YouTube videos, and not to mention the YouNow shows we'd live to make time for, for the fans. Whatever happens, though, find comfort in knowing that we'll always have each other."
And I did. I fell asleep in comfort of futures with Phil, and finding myself fall deeper and deeper into a strong bond and of admiration for him.
He had given me a soft kiss on the forehead, made us both some tea, and reassured me of the future looking bright, whatever it may be.
