Bakugou:"Deku what's this."
Izuku:"Im sorry Kacchan.."
Izuku pov:
My heart sinks while i can hear his breathing start to pick up.
Kacchan:"W-was it me? Did i do something wrong..."
Izuku:"What..no Kacchan it's not you..."
Bakugou:"But you were 3 weeks clean? W-why."
Izuku:"Im sorry i can't be...better for you."
Kacchan pulls me closer to him hugging me so tight i cant breath.
His words hurt...the way he said it, it was as if he was the one who got hurt.
Kacchan:"Im sorry i can't help you, im trying to
.i really am..i want you to feel better, i dont want you to be in anymore pain...deku..im..sorry i wasn't there to help you before but im here now okay? Please deku come to me next time. I don't want to loose you, please i love you."
His words were so painful, how could he love a monster like me? Hes shaking in my arms. Is he crying? Did i cause him to cry?
Izuku:"im sorry i hurt you."
Kacchan:"stop that..."
Izuku:" what?"
Kacchan:"Stop worrying about everyone except yourself! You treat everyone like their fragile jewel's whilest you fade away in the dark! You need to treat yourself like the true diamond you are. The rest of these exstras are just plastic jewels, they act as if the are legit but in reality they will do anything to anyone just to keep their status. You are the diamond that hides in the simplest of places, you can be found so easily yet you hide your beauty...all you need is someone who loves you and cares for you like those idiots that polishes diamonds. You just need to find the person who brings out your true form the person that shows everyone els your beauty , the way your smile shines is so wonderful everyone would die to see it but yet you hide it so carefully. I want to be the polisher, the person who makes you shine and shows you your real beauty but im afraid i might fail...i might fail you, and hurt you again. Deku i don't want to hurt you i just want you to be okay. I want you to feel loved. I want you to be mine."
He wimpers into my ears as if i he was talking to my dead corps. Did i cause him to worry so much ? Why does he care for me so much that he puts himself in impossible situations everyday just to be with me? Does he really love me? But how? I don't understand this feeling. Its like im in so much pain i just want to scream and cry but im also feeling so much love and comfort that i just want to be held by him, in his arms forever.
Izuku:"I love you Kacchan."
Kacchan:"I love you to deku, no matter what you do or what someone els says i will always be by your side."
A a few tears escape my eyes, the ones I've been holding back for so long. I've loved him ever since i could remember. Not once did i ever think he would ever love me back....but here we are...hes the only one that actually makes me see a point in living. I dont know what i will do if he ever disappears.
eventually we both fall asleep in eachothers arms.
[The next morning.]
Bakugou:"Shit we overslept."
Bakugou pov:
I wake dekus sleepy ass up and tell him we have to get dressed.
I quickly throw on my uniform and help him with his clothes. I grabed some spare crutches i bought him yesterday and give him one sothat he could support himself throughout the day. We make our way outside the dorm and lock the door. We quickly walk to first period.
[In class]
Where tf is the teacher? Its already 15 minutes in. Suddenly i hear a loud group of people laughing which makes me turn around.
Whats going on? Their all holding a yellowish book. I walk closer to the group and see that their taking pics of pages of the book.
Bakugou:"Yo, what are you exstras doing."
???:"bro we found Midoriya's diary! He has some pretty funny things written in here like confessions and some suicide notes. "
Bakugou:" What..."
???:"Yeah ik right the kid's crazy. Here have a look."
They hand me the book and i flip them off whilest walking away with it. I go sit down at my desk and start reading it. It has some love letter in it as well as suicide letters written to every person he cares about. This tiny yellow book looks like the one he had in middle school...wait- can it be!? It is this book!
I notice the one suicide letter is dedicated twords me so i read it.
Dear Kacchan.
You have no idea how much i looked up to you, yet you always looked down on me? I have done nothing but loved you and be kind to you and you repayed me with beatings and hurtful words. You have always been the one i loved...
Im sorry im not perfect or pretty or useful or even have a quirk. I decided to finally take your advice and do it. Atleast now you will be proud of me for once. I hope you are happy that i followed what you asked me to do, i hope i can finally put a smile on your face, i hope you can finally relize that i am atleast good at one thing. Im sorry i waisted your time all these years. Even though you were brutal with me i still loved you and cared for you and i would have done anything for you. I will miss you kacchan. I hope you find someone who can give you the love that you deserve because i am no longer going to be here to do that anymore. I love you Kacchan. Enjoy being number 1 hero.
- Deku. [Izuku Midoriya]
Bakugou:"Wtf, wait how did these idiots get this book in the first place!?"
I stuff the book in my backpack as i push down the Sinking feeling in my gut.
Why didn't i notice sooner that you were in so much pain..i could have prevented all of this yet i put my needs before yours. Im sorry deku.
YOU ARE READING
" i'm so sorry deku."
FanfictionDeku has been masking his feelings for a long time and hiding his biggest secret, but recently things have gotten much worse and the thoughts have grown louder. Until 1 day bakugou accidentally finds out izuku's secret and everything he thought he...
