Emerald Dreams- Sebastian Sallow x Ominis Gaunt x FemRavenclaw Mc (my oc used)

SS-Chapter 8

I got dressed in light pants and a thin blouse, swallowing hard. Sebastian's words hurt, but they weren't undeserved. But I had respected Anne's wishes, as she was right, he would have tried to find her, endangering himself and possibly her. 

His anger at me, while I understood, felt unfair. Taking a shaky breath, I packed a few things in my shoulder bag. I would return to the forest alone. I didn't care if Sebastian had offered to come with me, his anger hurt and was unfair.

 As I went to leave my room, I paused as I glanced at Ominis' jumper on my bed. Should I try speaking to him? I picked up the jumper, stepping out into the hall and hesitating at the door. 

I could hear Sebastian recounting everything to Ominis, sounding even more angry than he was when he snapped at me. The hurt in my chest only grew, as I grew cold at the realisation that I had, by keeping Anne's secret, deeply hurt Sebastian and probably Ominis too. 

I slipped Ominis' jumper onto the door handle quietly, making my way downstairs, tears streaming down my cheeks. Oh how I wished I could just disappear. 

I passed mum, who looked after me worried, but I didn't stop. I walked outside, toward the forest. At least in the light, It was more of a comforting place than a dangerous one.

When I got into the thicker part of the woods, I quickened my pace. I knew exactly where I was going. It was the same place I escaped to throughout my childhood, every time I got bullied or hurt. 

The whispering willow tree. There was only one in the entire forest here, but it wasn't too tall, the beautiful streams of leaves were tugged gently by the passing breeze. It had always been a special place, even before I had learned about being a muggleborn witch, the place had always felt magical to me.

 Perhaps that was nothing more than nostalgia talking, but it was true nonetheless. I slipped between its leaves, casting a disillusionment charm on myself, before breaking down completely. 

I had brought Sebastian and Ominis here to have a fun summer! To relax and just have fun without the pressures of Hogwarts or everything that had happened in our 5th year! But like I always tended to do, I ruined things. 

Perhaps I should just stay here, let the willow swallow me up and I could become a part of nature? I sobbed loudly, thankful there was no one around to hear. Even if there was, I didn't care. I was hurting, and overwhelmed.

This wasn't fair. I wanted some time to heal as well, and I wanted to be with my family. But now that I had combined my favourite people, things were going wrong...Was I too hopeful that this was a good idea? 

I could feel a panic attack coming on, my heart beating faster and my breathing becoming more and more difficult...Only this time I didn't have anyone to help me. It was funny, I had always tried my best to be there for those I loved, to help them in their times of need. 

However when I was the one needing help, no one ever seemed to be there. I lay on my side, using a tree root to support my head as I curled up with my knees to my chest. Yep, that was me. Hogwart's hero, curled up like a little invisible ball. 

I could deal with conflict when it was with those who intended to do me harm, but I ran away scared and hurt when it involved those I cared about. I missed Professor Fig. He may have been strange, and often hard to understand, but he had at least been THERE. 

To help me, and answer my questions. To help me understand what I had done wrong if I failed, and always with kindness. I didn't always understand him, but I had always felt listened to and comforted when he was around. Now that he wasn't...things were always just so confusing. 

And now I had yet ANOTHER threat coming after me, for seemingly no reason. I just didn't know if I could do it this time. I didn't know if I could win against this nameless foe, let alone two gargantuan Acromantulas. 

What felt worse was, I didn't know if I could rely on the two people who I trusted the most. It felt like too much all at once. It felt like there was something choking me, and I could do nothing but succumb to its hold. And just like that, the world went black.