Emerald Dreams- Sebastian Sallow x Ominis Gaunt x FemRavenclaw Mc (my oc used)

TTT-Chapter 18

"Zuri, this feels impossible." I huffed, slumping on the stone seat in the clocktower courtyard. Zuri was doing her best to teach me wandless magic, and it was not going well. I had been so good at adopting magic when I first started, but wandless magic was another beast entirely. 

I thought it was something I would be good at since I had my ancient magic abilities to assist. But as it turned out, without a wand, things proved to be more difficult. "Try to visualize what you want the spell to do. What are you trying to cast?" Zuri asked me, putting a hand on my shoulder to try and calm my frustrations. 

I sighed as I told her. I had been trying to cast Levioso, a simple spell I had learned on my first day at Hogwarts. Zuri pondered for a moment, before stepping in front of me and putting my palms together. "Let's start with Lumos instead, ok?" I sighed again, nodding. 

I tried to picture light coming from the tip of my wand like it normally would. But after a few moments, I opened my eyes to see nothing. My head fell into my hands, my hope of getting an advantage dwindling. 

"Emmy, what do you normally feel when you want to cast spells?" Zuri asked me. I looked at her in confusion. Feel? I hadn't really thought about it, I just knew what needed to be done, and usually it happened. "I don't get it, I didn't think emotions played a role in spellcasting?" I asked, to which Zuri smiled gently.

"They do and they don't. Strong emotions can both cause an emergence of magic, but they can also block it from happening. How are you emotionally right now?" "Uh...I'm as well as I can be I think?" she sat next to me, her arm going around my shoulders again. 

"You don't feel under pressure at all? You aren't scared?" Of course I was scared! That first trial nearly killed me! And I couldn't fail, or who knows what Ominis' parents would do. I would also be letting everyone down... 

"Emmy, listen to me. You're putting too much pressure on yourself and it's affecting your magic. Maybe instead of focusing on the things that are making you afraid, focus instead on the people who you are doing this for." I took a deep breath, facing toward the sky and letting my mind drift. Why was I doing this again? 

I wanted to protect Ominis...but more than that now. I had adopted Sebastian's goal of wanting to Impress my loves. I wanted them to be proud of me. I wanted my friends to be proud of me, for their belief in me to not be disproven. "You can do this Emmy. I believe you can."

Zuri's voice felt so far away, and yet I knew she was sitting right beside me. I took a deep breath, and when I let it out, I opened my hands. "Lumos." A small orb of light floated from the palm of my hand, hovering a few centimeters up.

When I realised my success, I beamed at Zuri. "What did you do?? You knew just the right words to say to help me!" She laughed. "Emmy, Do you know what the 7 chakras in the human body are?" I shook my head. 

"There are 7 points of energy that flow throughout the body. They each represent something and can be blocked by emotions. For you, your earth chakra, which Is located at the base of your spine, was blocked by your fear." I must have looked confused because she continued. 

"When our chakras are blocked by emotions, we can often struggle to cast spells in general, wandless or not. When I realised you were being stopped by your fear, by re-focusing on your positive emotions, I was assisting you in learning to let go of your fear." I nodded, processing what she was saying. 

It made sense, when emotional or scared I had been able to produce impressive magic to help me. But now that I was feeling stuck, I was struggling to learn and adapt. "How do you know all this stuff?" I asked, to which Zuri shrugged.

 "My mother came from India, and she heavily believed in the spirituality of chakras. She taught that knowledge to me when I was struggling with my magic, similarly to you. I do have a book on the other chakras, if you want to try and make sure when you feel a blockage, you can learn to let it go and keep your energy flowing?" I nodded. "I'd really like that." 

I stood, wanting to try a different spell now. "Incendio!" I cast a small but controlled jet of fire bursting from my fingertips. I laughed, excitement now bubbling in my stomach, my confidence returning. "Emmy?" I turned to Zuri, who was eyeing me curiously. "Yes?" She seemed to debate with herself for a moment, before asking. "Why did you have so much fear?" I froze, before sighing. "Because I have too much to lose if I fail."