Mixed Feelings

New Romance?

**** Harry’s POV

While we were laying down Katie fell asleep so we decided that we should let her be by herself. We all got up and started to make our way to the door but I couldn’t leave. Not yet. When I looked at that girl on the bed I didn’t see Katie. I saw a girl who looked lifeless. She looked broken. She looked so fragile like I you touched her she would fall apart. I felt so sorry for her. But at the same time I knew she was strong.

She still needed help though… It’s only for the best.

“Do you guys think we should call her a doctor or something?” I whispered trying not to wake Katie up from her well needed rest.

“I don’t know…” Liam said.

“Yes.” Niall stated. “It’s for the best guys...” He said. I could tell he wanted to cry. Hell I wanted to cry. I don’t want to lose my best friend.

“Okay I’ll call a doctor.” Louis said. He was taking this very hard. He was very protective of Katie.

We all nodded in agreement and left Katie’s room to go call a doctor.

*****

Right as the Doctor walked into Katie’s room Katie woke up. And she was not expecting there to be a Doctor in her room. She looked somewhat intimated by the Doctor too. I wonder why.

“W-what is s-she doing h-here?” Katie stuttered. That’s weird she never she never stuttered.

“I’m here to help you. I’m Doctor Greene.” The Doctor said ignoring Katie’s question.

“Here Hun. Can you fill this out please?” The doctor said again.

Katie’s eyes went wide. For what reason I don’t know, but it obvious she didn’t like what the questions asked.

Later Katie handed the paper back to the Doctor and the Doctor asked many different questions I wasn’t really paying any attention until one question caught my full attention.

**Katie’s POV

“When did you start cutting?” The Doctor asked.

I didn’t know what to say so I just shook my head. A way of telling her to move on to the next question. Thankfully she did.

“Okay. Why did you start cutting? And I need an answer this time.

“Um because…” I paused to get up and walk over to the mirror. Once I got there I just looked at my reflection and took a deep breath.  “Because when I look in the mirror I don’t see myself anymore. I see a girl that’s too short, too fat and too broken. This girl in mirror isn’t me anymore. She doesn’t have dark enough skin, she doesn’t have clear skin, and she doesn’t have anything to be proud of.” I said while maintaining eye contact with myself in the mirror.

“That’s not true!!” Niall said.

“But it is…” I sighed

“That’s not true sweetheart. But let’s get going to the paper shall we?” Katie just nodded in response. After looking at her reflection for another second she made her way back to the bed.

“Okay Estph—“The doctor started.

“Call me Katie!!”  I said rather loudly.

“But your real name is magnificent.”

“Your real name?” Zayn said.

Yes I didn’t tell my best friend I real name. I just didn’t really like it. It reminded me of my dad. My dad named me “Estephania.” I didn’t… like my dad. He abandoned me and my mom when we needed him. I loved my last name though. Even if it did come from him. I loved rolling my ‘r’s. It was a lot of fun. And I was good at it.

“My real name is Estephania Katie Preciado.” I said while looking at the floor.

“Sooo your---“

“Mexican? Yes.” I said proudly.

“Then how do you have an English accent? And how do you like in England?” Liam asked.

“I moved here right before I turned two. I used to live back in the states. And I guess the accent just grew on me.” I said smiling.

 “Anyway back to the question. At what age did you start cutting Estephania?”

“You can call me Steph if you like. And since I was 14.” I even have a scar to prove it. I said in my mind. Or least I thought.

“What do you mean?” The doctor asked.

“I have a scar… on my hip. It says ‘14’.” I said feeling ashamed.

“Can I see it?” Zayn said.

“Sure…” I said while lowering my shorts a little just so that you can see the ‘14’ on my side.

“I’m so sorry.” Zayn said and hugged me. But I didn’t hug back. I didn’t want his sympathy. I think he knew that because he backed away quietly.

****

When the meeting was over the Doctor told me that I had to set up a meeting with her in about 6 months. And she said I have to take it easy for a while. She said no running, walking, moving too quick or dancing. I loved to dance. I wonder how I’m supposed to cope with that.

“Hey want play a game?” Louis randomly asked.

“Okay but not in my room.” I said. Yeah I’m kind of an OCD freak when it comes to my room. But other rooms can have a rat running through it and I wouldn’t care.

“Okay” Harry said and made his way over to me. I looked at him with worry I knew what he was going to do.

“Harry put me down….” I wined. He picked me up, bridal style, and made his way to the door, downstairs and to the couch, where he laid me down.

“There. That wasn’t so hard was it?” Harry teased.

“Whatever.” I said and kissed him on the cheek. Zayn just coughed awkwardly.

“Wait. Before we play Harry I need to talk to you. In private.” I said while flicking my head to the kitchen. Harry picked me up. Me with my legs wrapped around his torso and my hands wrapped around his neck. His arm snaked its way around my waist.

“What did you want to talk about?” He said

“What are we?” I said.

“Um… well I was… going to wait until later… but since you’re here.. Ka--Steph would you… like to go out with me…?” Harry asked while rubbing the back of his neck. I could tell he was nervous.

“Okay.” I smiled

“Good. So I can do this.” He said and put his lips onto mine. It was a short, but romantic, kiss.

“Are you gu—AHHH!” Liam shouted. Then more footsteps were heard then came to a complete stop.

“Are you guys going out?” Niall asked with his mouth wide open.

“Yup.” Harry said while popping the ’p.’

**** Zayns POV

“Yup.” Harry said while popping the ‘p.’ I can’t believe him! He knows exactly well how I feel about Steph. What the hell.

I stomper up to my room and sat on my bed thinking of a plan. “I got it.” I said to myself.

I guess I just have to win her heart the hard way…

This will be fun!