Only If

chapter 3 (perfect evil)

ARIS's POV

I saw Ellie heading to the commissary, I saw her get her share of food and went to a corner... There she eats alone. She doesn't finish her food hearing nasty words from fellow nurses and other staff.

She stands up and quietly goes. I hide... She went to the washroom,  thirty minutes passed she was not able to get out... What is he doing inside the washroom?

"You should take a leave, It has been days now that you're not feeling well,'

"It's a slight fever, no need to worry... It's as if you're not a nurse to panic about a fever, hahahaha,"

I hear her laugh, not her usual laugh which is full of life.

"Fever? She got a fever?" I said to myself... No, I must not worry about her. Her fever is nothing compared to what she did to me. Even if it will turn to dengue or what, it won't suffice.

I get myself too busy to forget about Ellie.

At snack time, I saw her going to the canteen. To know her whereabouts, I checked the CCTV... Again, at one corner she eats arrozcaldo and bottled wattled water. I saw her drinking a pill, maybe for her fever.

After around 10 minutes, she rested her head on the table, and after a few seconds, she shook it and stood. Is she having a fever still? Or is she not feeling well?

I tend to worry, but I suppress my feelings, she deserves that... A cheater deserves not to be taken care of.

ELLIE's POV

For the whole day, I feel my body aches, but I ignore it. Lately, I got a slight fever. 

At lunchtime, I went to the commissary... "You eat, try to eat Ellie, and drink medicines, take care of yourself because no one will," I told myself as if I was crazy... Oh my, am I getting crazy?

I bear my feeling ill, at break time, I try to fill my stomach with something, I tried the arrozcaldo, then I drink my medicines. I have no appetite but I force myself to have intake... I want to rest for a while, I remember those times when Aris was sweet, loving, and caring to me... with my simple colds, he worries a lot. He used to let me take my rest in his office, but now, I am his wife, but I am disallowed to enter. I rest my head in my arms, it's around ten minutes, then I feel to throw up, I walk fast to the washroom... There in the sink all the food I intake, I throw up. A fellow nurse, at least shows me concern.

I force myself to concentrate on my work... I will be out at 7 o'clock, a fellow nurse requested me to take her duty until 7 eve... at 5 o'clock, Aris will be off-duty.

I am at the nurse station after my 3 p.m. snacks. I saw Aris coming and together with Doc Mendrez... they're holding hands walking the hallway. I wanted to break down, but all I was able to do was to bow my head in so much shame... Imagine, a newlywed like me, my husband is now holding hands with another woman. I saw ridicule in the eyes of my fellow nurse... I pretend to see nothing.