It's Always Been Briar

Chapter 14.

She pulls me in for a deep, sensual kiss and I am floating. Already, just by kissing her. I don't think I'm ever going to get used to how Briar makes me feel and I am ok if I don't.

Trying to think about how to get the condom without discouraging her or making her feel bad. I decide to pull us over to the side of the bed. I slip off so I'm standing and she is sitting on the bed. I reach down to grab her legs and pick her up. We keep making out while I walk over to my desk and set her down.

Reaching for my top drawer, I open it and grab a condom. Pulling it out, Briar notices and the look on her face crushes me as she pulls away.

'No, no, no. It is not what you think at all, darlin.' She looks completely defeated and is looking at the ground.

'Briar, look at me.' She tilts her head up and looks at me. I understand how she feels, she just gave herself fully to me. This must feel like a major rejection.

'Me wanting to use a condom this time has nothing to do with me not wanting to just bury myself inside you right now. Trust me, I want to do that more than anything. But I want to make sure I'm still clean. I will never put you at any type of risk. You mean too much to me to be careless now. I've never had anything and sure if I have something it's probably treatable so we would get treated but I won't do that to you.'

I love you too much.

'If you don't want to have sex anymore, I completely understand. But honey, this is so not about me not wanting you. I've never wanted and will never want anyone more.' I tell her.

I go to put the condom back but she grabs my arm and then takes it from me. She rips open the foil and takes the condom out. I look down as she starts to slide it down my cock with both hands. I drop my head into the crook of her neck and groan as she gets it on.

Lifting my head to look at her. I stare into her eyes and grab both sides of her face. Leaning in I give her a sweet kiss on the lips and tell her to, 'Jump'. She jumps and I catch her and make my way back to the bed. Briar is placing kisses all over my jaw and I lean my head back to give her more access as she kisses down my throat.

Softly placing us back on the bed, I lay her down and hover over her. Her legs are still wrapped around my waist and she starts rocking her hips.

Fuck, I can't believe this is happening. I'm about to make love to Briar Kensington. I'm going to treat her like fucking glass.

So the first thing I do is softly touch the side of her face and keep kissing her. But I change the vibe to loving and sensual instead of feral and rabid. We can have rough-ass sex next time but this time it's going to be different.

'Are you ready?' I ask her quietly.

'Yes, I'm ready, love.'

'You let me know if it hurts, it's too much, or you need me to stop. Promise?'

She sticks out her pinky and I loop mine with it and she says. 'I promise.'

This is it.

I reach to grab one hand. I interlock our fingers and I bring it over her head. With the other, I reach down and run the tip of my cock up and down her core. I line up at her entrance and slowly, slowly start to push in.

'Oh, my god.' I groan quietly as I'm already seeing stars and just the tip is in.

Slowly pushing a little more in, I reach back up and cup Briar's cheek. She looks like she is doing ok so far. I keep slowly pushing in, I'm about a quarter of the way in.

I let out a puff of air and ask her. 'Are you feeling ok, darlin?'

'Yes, River. Keep going.' She tells me.