I read Dr. Murphy's 'The Power of Your Subconscious Mind' and decided to apply his principles in my day to day life for the next 90 days to see the change that it's gonna bring. Miracles are gonna happen because I say so. Come and join me in this jo...
I'm trying to keep my journal as emotionless as possible. But this is not the day when I can keep up with it.
The day started perfectly. I had almost completed all five tasks by the first half of the day itself. This day was an absolute win. The habit was not so hard today. I also uploaded my YouTube videos, edited my journal, and cooked my lunch.
Though I have achieved everything that I wanted, this day is still incomplete.
Where am I missing?
My heart is feeling like it is sinking to the bottom of the ocean. I know I can't say such things while I am training my subconscious mind. But not all the days are the same.
Let's try to avoid negativity and talk about what we need instead of what we don't need.
When was the last time someone asked you how your day was?
Are you happy? Did anyone ever care about it?
If you feel trapped, will anyone come to rescue you?
Do you have a shoulder to cry on?
Do you have someone who will be there for you, no matter what?
Have you ever obtained love without a condition?
Will they accept you for whoever you are?
Did someone ever try to make you smile?
Has anyone noticed your broken heart? Have they ever tried to amend it for you?
Do you have a home other than your home to go to?
Do you have a family that does not contain your biological parents?
Is there someone who can notice your wet eyes and fake smile?
If I need to continue my questions, millions of questions are on my mind. So let's stop right here.
What has gotten into me? Why am I blabbering about something that is so unrelated?
Okay. Now it's time to make a wish.
I know what I don't have. Why should I feel bad for it? We are working on our subconscious mind. So we can ask our subconscious mind to yield everything that we want. Sometimes I feel the subconscious mind is more like a God. The god of your choice.
So let me ask what I want.
I need a human being who will see the pain in my eyes. I can't say that because my pain is slowly fading away. My subconscious mind is actually very good at healing.
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1.33 am-12.53 am
I blabbered a lot in the evening; midnights are the perfect time to write a journal. I just have to consolidate my day, and it doesn't reflect my mood swing so much.
I asked so many questions to you and to myself this evening.
But why should we need someone we don't have at all?
We have thousands of people in our lives who truly care about us.
They may not ask you how your day was because they are already in your day.
They might not try to make you smile, but they gave you millions of things that brought you a smile now and then.
For example, all the things that I do now and all these things that bring me happiness now were not given to me by my parents. All they gave me was a new phone this New year. This year is a blast because I have a personal phone through which I am communicating with the whole world. They might not exactly try to make you smile. They choose a medium that will lighten your mood.
Mom makes a delicacy.
Papa buys you things.
Siblings make silly jokes.
They do contribute to our happiness.
I should be grateful for what I have.
I am the most favorite child of my mother, though I am a middle child.
I am the lucky charm for my father. He believes that if I touch it, it's gonna turn gold. So each month, I am the one who makes the financial statement. Even today, I made it for the upcoming month. My father calls me "Finance Minister."
I am loved by the people who surround me. What else do I need? Still, maybe I might be longing for something that I don't have.
But that's not a big deal.
There are people who do not have loving parents. There are people who do not even have a single soul to take care of them. I don't fall into those categories.
Maybe they can't notice my inner self so much. While going out today, I asked my mom, "Can't you see that I am sad?"
She was like, "Why? What happened? There must be a reason. What was the reason?"
She was shooting me so many questions.
So the bottom line is that she loves me. I love her.
I don't doubt her love, and no other love can be greater than my mom's love.
The subconscious mind is doing great magic. It healed me in a very short span of time.
I should thank my idea for writing this journal, and I should also thank you for reading this journal.
We are getting closer to success.
Happiness is the ultimate win, which I got, I guess. This journey is about to bring me so much happiness.
Let's meet tomorrow!
Bye bye!
-Araminta Flores
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