I read Dr. Murphy's 'The Power of Your Subconscious Mind' and decided to apply his principles in my day to day life for the next 90 days to see the change that it's gonna bring. Miracles are gonna happen because I say so. Come and join me in this jo...
I guess you guys know I used to publish my Day 8 (previous day) journal on Day 9 (present day).
But today, on Day 9, October 1, 2023, I am traveling. I don't think that I can find the written manuscript for Day 8, proofread it, and publish it to you guys. So I used my phone to write something for you guys and publish it right now.
Day 8, in short: 3/5—didn't do meditation or study the stock market. But I met someone with whom I discussed his experience on the stock market. I also wrote two stories and published them, which are also related to the subconscious mind. Also, I updated my citizenship ID so that I could open my Demat account for stock trading. It's such a productive day, and I slept around 2.30 after writing the journal in a diary, which I don't have right now.
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Day 9:
Hey Guys! Just now, the day started. But I feel like I should complete my journal right now. Because today I am going to travel to a faraway land that is surrounded by cold weather and warm people.
I am just exaggerating, guys! I am not traveling to a foreign country. I am just traveling about 400 kilometers away from my home. Writing a journal at the end of the day can be uncertain. So, let's do it right now.
Let me tell you something about me in this journal.
This journey is making me miss my friend so much. Why so? Last time, I had this very same journey with her. It was so fun. I didn't reply to two of her messages, and that's it. She never talked to me again. So this is it.
Didn't she ever want me? I am not the type of person who conveys that I miss them. I won't change that for her.
She is the type of girl who wants to give me exactly what I gave her. But I hate that.
I don't need what I gave you. I need something that you intend to give me. Don't you have anything to give me that I never gave you?
I want her to let her ego go. I try to give her what she wants, and she gives the same to me. Is it a ritual to give back what you receive? What I want is not what I get. I got what I gave.
All I need is a friendship that doesn't come with a condition. If I haven't talked to you for months, that doesn't mean I forgot about you. I don't forget people that easily.
She might have thought that I replaced her with someone else. But for me, each and every human being is unique. The place that is reserved for you cannot be traded for anyone else. She is not a person who can understand that. I cannot be the only person trying so hard to keep our relationship alive. Because even if it's not today, someday I am going to get tired of all these. Why wait till someday? If it's not worth having, let's drop it at the very moment.
Cherishing everything we have, and I am gonna stop longing for that even more.
I am not the kind of girl that can be easily forgotten. She can never ever forget me because the experience of being with me is something magical, and each and every soul that crosses my life will remember me for who I am.
A quote from Nevertheless k-drama, "Close, but not close enough to hurt each other. Isn't it good?"
Yes, Guys. That quote is so good. Me and my friend used to talk for hours daily. But that's not the case now. Maybe we talked the talk that is reserved for a lifetime in a very short span of time. I value myself more than anyone else, and that's the main reason why I don't have many friends.
When they start disturbing my peace in any way, I don't care about leaving them.
They might see me as a cold person. But it also has something to do with my subconscious mind. That's how I like to present myself to people. That's the protective mechanism that I use to keep me safe from human beings.
Should I kill my self-worth just to be with people? I can't do that.
Let's work on ourselves more, guys.
These lines remind me of the people who were close to me right then. So once, at some point in time, these lines reminded her.
"And you know one of these days, when I get my money right, buy U everything & show U all the finer things in Life.." These lines are from the Marry Me song by Jason Derulo.
One day, I will succeed in my life. But who will be there to enjoy it with me? Who will be there on the cruise trip that I have planned forever?
Who is going to be with me on my Thailand trip?
Only time can answer those questions.
Any relationship that is broken and amended can never be the same.
My friend's case is also the same.
It took three years to refer her as a friend, so I will refer her that way forever, though we may not talk like we used to.
