Unlocking the Powers of my Subconscious Mind

Day 39 - Cheating U or Me❓

Am I really working on my subconscious mind?
 
Is increasing productivity contributing to the sub-conscious mind?
 
All I am doing is increasing productivity and cultivating good habits.
 
I try to motivate myself with some positive words then and there. But this is the least thing that I can do to unlock my subconscious mind, right?
 
On day 1 of the challenge, I read 60+ pages of Dr. Murphy's subconscious mind book, but from day 2, I was reading Think and Grow Rich. But this week, all I am reading are Wattpad stories for book reading. Is it okay? Will Wattpad stories contribute to unlocking the powers of my subconscious mind?
 
I am deviating so much, guys. I am using so many negative words lately. Even yesterday's journal was filled with the word "scared". I repeated it until the word sank deep into my subconscious mind. But that's not what I should do, right?
 
I am trying to amend my broken pieces before rebuilding myself, for which I need to talk about my feelings. But just talking for 30+ days is a bit too much, isn't it?
 
I need to live like a monk for the next 2 months. We still have 60 days this year. If we want a change that is life-changing, we need to do something that we have never done before. Repeating the same boring day and expecting magic to happen is actually stupid.
 
I should not see tasks as tasks. I should love the process. But lately I am just trying to do something in a hurry and put a tick in that checkbox. But the tick is not something that holds value, right? I should enjoy things, and I should enjoy and immerse myself while doing all that.
 
If I want to rate myself for my work, I will rate 6/10, which is a just pass.
 
The first week's performance is much better than the later weeks because October went a bit unexpected. I should stop giving reasons like this, and I should improve myself in all aspects of life.
 
I started driving class today, and yoga class is something that's not going to start anytime soon, I guess. Not even four people in our town are ready to join yoga classes, and only if they do, yoga classes will resume.
 
So, let's not depend on external factors. Let's do meditation right from the comfort of my home. Sometimes, journaling feels like talking to myself.
 
Do you feel the same?
 
Am I blabbering so much?
 
Let's speak only positively, and let's bring lots of good changes in the next and last 60 days of his year.
 
Byebyeeee
 
-AramintaFlores♥️
(October 31, 2023)
 
(The last few lines are written on November 1 because I fell asleep so early at 2.20 a.m. yesterday.)
 
The time I sleep is not in my control, guys. A tiny little creature that I love is controlling it. But I should not state silly reasons while unlocking the powers of my subconscious mind. I will try to improve, guys!