Journey To the Past [ Romanovs x Reader] 🇺🇸

Longing pt 1

Third Person POV

From [Y/N]'s journal ~

July 14th, 1941

It's been already almost whole month since the children left to Switzerland. I miss them so much... The only reason why I am not closed inside my room, crying, it's because we all have a lot of work. There are arriving new wounded day by day...
I cannot understand Hitler's attitude. How can someone treat people like that?! Whole world suffers because of it all! And now, also we are involved in that mess...

[Y/N] closed her journal with a soft sigh and hid it in the drawer,as always. She looked through the window and dived deep into her own thoughts...
She got snapped out of them as the knock on the door could be heard and the butler came in. " Your Majesty, they are waiting for you..."
I'll be ready in a minute." She nodded.

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When they arrived at the hospital, she noticed a certain familiar face among the rest of the nurses.
" Lisa?" She asked quite surprised, the girl turned around quickly and gasped. " Oh? Your Majesty?!" She frantically dusted off her dress and curtsied. [Y/N] shook her head. " No need to do that..."
" Um..Of course... Sorry... Your Majesty..." The girl uttered nervously and the tsarina chuckled. " Just call me [Y/N], OK? "
" Um...OK...[Y/N]..."
" I see you are new here..."
" I really did not thought through this decision..." Lisa admitted, looking down at her feet as the woman laughed quietly. " It's all right. I can guide you." She smiled. Teenage girl's eyes lit up in excitement. " Really?! You would?!" But soon she reflected, realizing to whom she was talking. " Um..I mean...Thank you, [Y/N]..."
" You're welcome, dear." She smiled warmly. Lisa remaided her about her own self, when she was a young girl.
" Come now, I will show you everything."

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A day full of hard work passed by very fast. The young German girl turned out to have a quick mind and be able to learn very quickly. Only, she was getting a little nervous very easily, as well as scared to do something wrong. She needed to learn how to be more confident, but this would not be the problem for long, since [Y/N] and all four of her sisters-in-law were here to support Lisa.
She got the letter from Peter and almost immediately answered for it. Of course, she felt the same way! But now, she was even more worried about him...
" I wonder, if he is all right..." She mumbled unconsciously, keeping her hands still at the cup of warm tea she didn't even pick up once for last five minutes...
" Boy trouble ~? The woman asked softly as a slight smirk crept onto her face. Lisa's face flushed. " W- what makes you think that...?"
" Your behavior now and earlier." She answered casually. " So is it about a boy?"
" Even if, so what? No one will accept it anyway... " She sighed, turning her head away from [Y/N].
" And why is that so?"
His mother or my sister would have killed me..."
" Are they that bad?" The tsarina laughed slightly and Lisa shrugged. " His mother is very kind and nice, but my sister... Well.."
" I see what you mean... I've met her.
" His mother does not like her either, can't blame her though..."
" I understand her. But it's you who would be be with him, not your sister, right?"
" Well, yes... But no one would want Stephanie in the family and if we were ever to marry, she would be his sister-in-law, so..."
" Wait, how old are you?" [Y/N] was a little confused.
" 14 , why?" The girl shrugged.
" You  seem to think about it more mature than most of girls at your age, when it comes to love, aren't you?"
" Mm... I don't really think so.. Or maybe..." Lisa sighed. " You know, I have no idea about relationships at all.. My parents died...We were left alone with Stephanie, she changed so much... Once I had a support in her, but now... She complained shut me out..."
" Oh, Lisa..." [Y/N] looked at her pityfully as the girl smiled sadly.
" So, you see, I don't have a lot of experience in healthy relationships... He was my very first true friend... Maybe that's why I fell in love with him... But I have a feeling he really is THE one... I know, it's stupid... Go on, you can laugh."
[Y/N] however did not laugh. " I understand you... I really do..." She signed. " You might know this already, but my early childhood wasn't easy... After my mother died, father had a breakdown and he became a drunk... He began to abuse us... It lasted 2 years..." Lisa didn't say a word and kept listening...
" After I got took in by tsar Nicholas and tsarina Alexandra, my life changed completely. I befriended the Grand Duchesses and the tsarevich... I literally got a new, wonderful family... And Alexei... He was always there for me... And he was really my best friend. As years passed, the friendship began to bloom into something more. We didn't even know what is love supposed to be anyway... We just enjoyed our company and spending time together..."
" I see..."
" Let me tell you one important thing Lisa... When you find true love, you don't even have to know it's name. You just feel that it's the one... Regardless of how old you are, or were you are, or how far you both might be from each other... You just know it."