My head is a vault, locked with guilt, guarding secrets
I try to tell the truth, but nothing true ever leaves it
I choked on and stumbled the words that could save
Scorned and alone, stood bare in the flames
I won't forget your leaving, the things that you've done
But I still keep my mouth shut around everyone
I can't show you the ways you've changed who I was
A thousand little sighs turned to cuts you've caused
Worry not, you've made yourself so abundantly clear
You hate who I am too so I'll just disappear
I want to all cut all of you out of my veins
Kill who you've made me, and burn the remains
I will destroy this monster you've created
If only for the years I spent burning with hatred
My whole life I've taken the hand that you dealt me
Funny now the games reversed, will you play the cards you've left me?
You say it to my face, who made you this way?
As if I'm the one who will never change
Still screaming "I'm right" you set the bar too high,
Then you clipped my wings and told me "fly."
You can't handle the fact that your children are grown
Years in your presence we spent completely alone
At the slightest hint of criticism you cause the biggest fuss
Yet I still wish there was a way left to fix us
YOU ARE READING
Not me. (2023)
Short Storyso, I've been struggling for a long time now, and I never told anyone about it. I've never opened up. but I met someone who understands how I feel, and I'm beginning to feel again. I don't know how to do it, but I finally feel I can fight. I've been...
