I was born into this world screaming, the way all children are born into the world.
And I have been a child.
I have fallen off bikes and down hills.
I have been taught to stand back up.
I was shown what I should be, who I should become.
And I was told to stand on my own.
And so I stood.
I came into this world screaming, the way all children are born into the world.
And I have been a child.
I have seen beauty in ugly things.
I have made many mistakes.
I was taught how to learn from those mistakes, how to be better because of them.
And I was told not to complain.
And so I stayed silent.
I came into this world screaming, the way all children are born into the world.
And I have been a child.
I have cried as I was hurt.
I have been told to be different.
I was criticized for my honesty, kept quiet because of it.
And I was told not to care.
And so I acted like I didn't.
I came into this world screaming, the way all children are born into the world.
And I have been a child.
I have watched fat turn to bone.
I have seen smiles fall and fade.
I was told this was normal, that sad was a temporary emotion.
And I was told I'd feel better.
But I never did.
I came into this world screaming, the way all children are born into the world.
And I was a child.
I have watched as my mind corrupted itself.
I have watched as the blood cooled on my skin.
I was told that didn't happen to kids my age, that it was shameful to speak of.
And I was told it was a phase.
And I believed it.
I came into this world screaming, the way all children are born into the world.
And I was a child.
I have felt my chest tighten.
I have felt my back stiffen.
I was helpless to my emotions, controlled constantly by them.
And I was told, just be happy, when I couldn't.
And so I pretended I was.
I came into this world screaming, the way all children come into the world.
And I was a child.
I have carved red smiles into my skin.
I have lost so many nights of sleep.
I was praying for God to take me, so I didn't have to feel like this.
And God never came.
But an angel did.
I was born into the world screaming, the way all children are born into the world.
And I was a child.
I have been lost, and alone.
I have been utterly feeling-less.
I was found, and loved so desperately, more than anything.
And I learned to feel that love.
And so I did.
I was born into this world screaming, the way all children are born into the world.
And I was a child.
But I am a child no longer.
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Not me. (2023)
Short Storyso, I've been struggling for a long time now, and I never told anyone about it. I've never opened up. but I met someone who understands how I feel, and I'm beginning to feel again. I don't know how to do it, but I finally feel I can fight. I've been...
