Maybe if I were better, I wouldn't feel like you'd left
Maybe if I were better I wouldn't have this pain in my chest
Maybe If I were better Id have the words to explain
Why lately I've just been feeling sort of insane
Maybe if I were better, I could forgive myself
Maybe if I were better, I wouldn't act like someone else
Maybe if I were better, I would smile and not feel pained
From all of these memories taking residence in my brain
Maybe if I were better id have the words to say
I love you, but I hate me
Yes, I'm the one to blame
Maybe if I were better, I wouldn't wish for this
For death to come in and grant my wish
Maybe if I were better, I wouldn't think about
All the terrible things I could do to take myself out
Out of this equation
Out of this life
Out of this pain
Out of this strife
Out of the muddle
Out of this mess
Out of all this fucking pain in my chest
Out of this weight
Weighting me down
Out of the thoughts
That keep pulling me down
Out of all my misery
Oh, God please, set me free
No don't do that
I want to hurt
Maybe if I were better
It wouldn't feel deserved.
YOU ARE READING
Not me. (2023)
Short Storyso, I've been struggling for a long time now, and I never told anyone about it. I've never opened up. but I met someone who understands how I feel, and I'm beginning to feel again. I don't know how to do it, but I finally feel I can fight. I've been...
