You and Me (Daryl Dixon x Reader {Ricks Sister})

Chapter 68 - Stupid People

It's been too long. I miss him. I should be able to be fine without him but its so hard to pretend that everything is ok when there is a high possibility that it won't be. 'What ifs' and 'maybes' ran through my mind constantly. What if he's bit? or turned? dead completely? what if hes one of the ones surrounding Alexandria right now? what f he was kidnapped by a group of cannibals like Terminus? What if hes being tortured? Or... what if he left for good? decided he didn't need me- need the group anymore, and left, just him, on his bike?

That was the thought I didn't want to entertain.

Not ever.

So now I'm sitting in our room, holding one of his shirts in my hands and just... holding it. looking down at it as I run the fabric between my fingers. I wanted to be able to feel his skin on mine again. Breathe him in. But I couldn't. And it was killing me.

Sitting in our room, on our bed, and instead of holding him and him holding me early morning before we got our asses up... I was holding his damned shirt.

how pathetic.

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As I was walking around along the walls, I noticed Maggie on one of the watch posts. So I decided to go on up and talk to her. I know what she's going through.

Once I got up the latter, I looked out over the hard. "You don't have to be up here alone all the time." I said softly to her.

"... I wont be." she murmured back dismissively. "He'll come from out there. If he sends out a signal it will be from out there... or it wont be."

I let out a slow breath and looked up at her. "Listen Mags... I know its hard but.. I'm sure Glenn is ok. He just hasn't found a way to tell us yet." I spoke quietly.

"And how about Daryl? If I told you he was alright and he wasn't dead would you believe me just because I said so?" she said a little harshly, before sighing. "I was to have faith that he's ok but I also just keep thinking... what if he isn't?"

I sighed and nodded a bit. "alright, I get it. Our men are both lost, we dont know for sure if tey are ok, but I have-"

"What? Hope?" She scoffed and shook her head a little. "...y/n I... I can't do this alone. Without him."

"Honey I know life is throwing us major curve ball right now but I assure you we are all here to help support one another and-"

"y/n I'm pregnant." She whispered. "... I'm pregnant and I don't know what to do..."

I paused a little. "Oh, Maggie..." I whispered, before pulling her in for a hug. "It's gonna be ok... ok? I've got you... I'll help as much as I can, ok? I'll help" I promised softly as I held her in my arms.

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Carol, Rick, Michonne, Morgan and I sat at a table. Just us.

".... What's goin' on?" Morgan asked as he looked between the 4 of us.

Rick sighed. "When I came back... I tried to cut off the Herd with the RV. Lead the walkers away. But 5 of those people with the W's on their foreheads, they stopped me. They tried to kill me, shot up the RV." Then he looked at Morgan again. "Now.. Carol and Y/n say they saw you. That you wouldn't kill those people."

"Did you let any of them go?" Carol asked softly

"....Yes, I did." he answered. The tension in the room only grew thicker as we all came to terms with what he was saying. "I didn't want to kill 5 people I didn't have to kill" he explained his reasoning, which just pissed me off.

"Morgan they burned our people alive, cut them apart, murdered them in the streets." I snapped.

"Yeah." Morgan nodded at me as he sighed, a small moment of silence fell over us all before Morgan looked up at Rick and sighed. "Why didn't you kill me, Rick, back in King County?" he asked as he watched my brother. "Pulled a knife on you, stabbed you, so why didn't you kill me? was it cause I saved you after the Hospital?"

"Because I knew who you were-"

"Back there I woulda killed you as soon as I looked at you." He interrupted. "And I tried. but you let me live. And then I was there to help Daryl and Aaron." he shook his head a little. "see if I- If I wasn't there... If they died... maybe those wolves wouldn't have been able to come back here." he glanced at me and I knew he could see the irritation in my gaze. "I don't know whats right anymore. 'Cause I did want to kill those men-"

"Then why didn't you?" I snapped.

"Because while I saw what they were doing and knew I could end it, I also know that people can change-"

"So you expect these blood thirsty people to just change because you will them to?! Morgan they know where we live! after we get this walker thing sorted they could come back, attack us at a weak point-" I huffed and stood sharply. "Excuse me." I muttered as I stormed out.

He knew he could have stopped it. Put an end to the pain they put our people through. But he didn't. All because of some pipedream he had of those people getting better. Well that is some bullshit. If he can't manage to protect our people in a situation like that how will he react when shit inevitably gets worse? How can we expect him to just... Protect our home? Our people? what if he cant...?

I hate to say it, but if Morgan can't help protect our people... then maybe he shouldn't be one of the people.

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I was starting to walk along the wall when I heard the shouts. Spencer had tried to breach the wall to get out of Alexandria, before he fell. Rick was leaning over the Edge of the wall reaching for Spencer to grab onto while I quickly climbed onto another watch post and started shooting walkers that were closest to him, along with Tara, who was hanging outside the wall for a better visual. Rick, Morgan, and one of the Other Alexandrian's all were working on lifting Spencer up, While Michonne joined me on the watch post to pull Tara back up.

once she was back on her feet, I heard rick yell out. "Tara! you already almost died once for these people."

She gave a confused look, before calling back, "What?"

"What the hell were you doing?" he yelled back.

She just flipped him off, and I nodded a little. "You did good, fighting for these people." I praised, before glaring to the other watch post. "Spencer, on the other hand, will be given a very, very stern talking to." I muttered as I glared at the young man on the other watch post, But it looked like Rick had beat me to it.

Damn this place... going to hell... Enid is missing now, a group of our people is still out there, we don't know who all was dead or alive, and worst we were all trapped here surrounded by walkers, and yet people were still making time to be stupid.

I know we've said it before, thought it before, but truly, it is a miracle these people have lived this long.

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Later out in the day, we all saw something. A large bundle of balloons, bigger than any of the ones we tied up, started floating up and over the sky. I stood next to Rick as we watched, before we heard Maggie running up behind us.

"Is that him? Is it Glenn?" She asked quickly as she ran over, panting slightly from how fast she ran over.

I just smiled a little at her, before looking back up. "God, I hope so honey." I whispered.

This are finally looking up.

...

Until they came crashing down again.

Literally.

The sound of wood snapping and breaking caught all of our attentions, and as we looked over we saw one of the taller buildings right outside of the walls start to lean.

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(1363 words in book)

Hey! I was gonna write more but then that was gonna be 2 episodes and pshhhh no need for that unless im short on my word count.

Im gonna try and get a 2nd chapter out this weekend, no promises though. ok, I love you all, I hope you enjoyed this chapter, and I hope you are having an amazing day or night and if you arent then I hope it gets better. ok, Bye!

update- if you saw this chapter without a title no you didnt