Little white lies

Chapter 9

It's a short chapter again I was planning on making it longer, but I passed out at a funeral so as soon as I got home I just went to bed to rest. My other book is kinda on hold rn so I will probably update more I don't promise anything, but I'll try. :)

xoxo C. 

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Louis presses a light kiss to the butterfly tattooed on my stomach. "What does this one mean." I let my fingers brush through his hair. "Freedom." "And this one?" he kisses the A tattooed on my shoulder. "For my mum Anne The g is for Gemma."

 "Do you miss them a lot?" I sigh holding Louis closer to my chest. "Yeah I do. I miss them so much. I think about them every single day wondering if I didn't tell her to drive faster they would still be here." Louis pecks my lips softly. "It's not your fault Haz." 

And even when his soft pink lips meet mine in a meaningful kiss all I can think about is the fact that it is my fault. I know it is.

I feel Louis' small fingers trace my tattoos starting by the ones on my chest slowly making his way towards my v-line. My breath hitches grasping Louis' hand. He looks up at me pouting "What's wrong?" I gulp "Nothing just um still a bit tired." He looks at me with a disbelieving look. 

"Harry you slept till 2 p.m. and you haven't done anything today except eating." He sits up "so you better tell me the real reason." "Just think it's a bit soon to do um y'know stuff. We're only dating for like a month." I'm a terrible liar so I'm surprised when I see Lou smile cutely. "You could've just told me Harold." I peck his lips. "I know it's just... it sounds so dumb.." 

"It doesn't, I understand. It's just a bit hard resisting you..." He smirks a little. "Oh shut up Tomlinson." I push him playfully making him fall off the bed. He gasps "I can't believe you tried to kill me," he sounds so serious, but I see the small smile forming on his red lips so I just started laughing and not much later he is joining me laughing loudly.

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"Lewis make me food." Louis rolls his eyes at him. "Shut up Niel." I stand up from the couch sighing. "Don't worry Nigel I'll make you food." 

"Why do you guys always give me different names?" "We don't your name is Nigel Niel Hormones right?" Louis cackles loudly while Niall just throws a pillow at me making me fall on the floor with a loud thud. 

"Okay fuck you, you can make your own food." I hear Liam gasp dramatically "Guys d-did he just say fuck." Zayn slaps his hand over his mouth. "Oh mah gawd I think he did." 

I sit down next to Niall again "Niall save me they're weird." He wraps his arms around me almost choking me. "Aww, they're just like you." I glare at him "I'm not weird." 

"sure whatever helps you sleep at night curly," he laughs and pats my thigh making me hiss loudly in pain. Louis' head snaps up immediately. "What's wrong?" 

I gulp, "Nothing." He stands up walking towards me. "Tell me Haz." "I-I..Uh, I just um I h-have to g-go," I stutter out before standing up and running out of the door. Great job not obvious at all... note the sarcasm. 

I lock my door as soon as I get home, breathing heavily. I know I shouldn't have done it. I was clean for a month and out of nowhere I just snapped. My vision is getting hazy and my breathing is getting irregular. I try to grab on to something but can't find anything. All I see is black, my head feels heavy and I feel myself falling.