"Butterflies died in my stomach
and the roses wilted too
it seems that
nothing is beautiful anymore
except you."
Song: In my veins - Andrew Belle
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Harry's pov
I open the door to my apartment hands shaking and tears blurring my vision. I let myself slide to the ground back resting against the now closed and locked door and bury my face in my hands letting out broken sobs. I thought he cared I thought someone finally cared... Why would anyone care about someone like me? I'm worthless. My legs are pulled up to my chest and I can feel the blood of my cut seeping through my shirt, but I'm too tired to care. All I can think about is Louis. Louis Louis Louis.
But even after all of this I can't find it in me to be angry at Louis or the guy he slept with because I understand. He's skinnier he's funnier he's better looking. I wouldn't choose me either. I get up on shaking legs sitting in front of my piano starting to play automatically.
Nothing goes as planned
Everything will break
People say goodbye
In their own special way
All that you rely on
And all that you can fake
Will leave you in the morning
But find you in the day
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Everything will change
Nothing stays the same
Nobody here's perfect
Oh, but everyone's to blame
Oh, all that you rely on
And all that you can save
Will leave you in the morning
And find you in the day
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you
Oh no, I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you
Everything is dark
It's more than you can take
But you catch a glimpse of sun light
Shining, shining down on your face
Your face
Oh your face
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
No, I cannot get you out
Oh, you're in my veins
No, I cannot get you out
Oh no, I cannot get you
Louis' pov
I'm standing in front of his door hearing him sing and play the piano. Tears are rolling down my cheek, thinking about how broken he looked when he saw me, us. How he told me he self-harms... How could he harm his beautiful skin? He's so perfect. Inside and out... "I love you, Harry," I whisper when the song ends. I hear his sobs making me cry even harder.
I knock on his door multiple times begging him to answer. I feel scared and guilty what if he decides to do it again? It'll all be my fault. "Harry please answer me I need to know if you're okay." I hear a cry of pain on the other side of the door. "HARRY WHAT HAPPENED OPEN THE DOOR!" I kick against the door and try to break it open, but then I remember the trick I learned from Zayn. I immediately grab my credit card opening the locked door.
"Harry where are you?" I walk into his bedroom seeing him lying on his bed there's bandage around his stomach partly red with his blood. "Oh my god." I grab his wrist checking his pulse letting out a sigh of relief. He's alive. Suddenly he lets out a little whimper before fluttering his eyes open. "Louis?"
"I'm here Harry. I'm so so-" "Leave" I sigh "Harry please listen to me." He sits up looking furious. "LEAVE!" he uses all his strength to push me off te bed and drag me to the door slamming it in my face locking it again.
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Hi babes
I know that this Chapter is short and shitty, but I came home last night around 4a.m. and fell asleep around 5:30 a.m. so I'm really tired but wanted to update anyway. Hope you enjoyed this chapter atleast a tiny little bit :)
Ow and before I forget I'm working on another story and I'll post it if I have atleast 10 Chapters written. I'm at 3 chapters now so it may take a while but I'm really excited to let you guys read it once it's ready.
xoxo C.
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