Freddie Mercury imagines

Love me like there's no tomorrow

Suggested by SleepInPeaceBruh

He looks so happy though it was the most miserable time for him...AGHHHHH I CAN'T TAKE THIS HE IS TOO PURE FOR THIS WORLD 😭😫😢🥺

On a happier note, this is the 39th chapter lovies 😏 I'm honestly just shocked it actually got this far as I know without all the reads and support this book was fortunate to receive on you darlings' account it certainly wouldn't have gotten this far, so thank you all so very much for hoping this story achieve success :)

Trigger warning: 1991 (No, his death is not graphically depicted nor is it even really depicted at all but it is implied) 

1991 (I'm crying already...FACK)

Freddie coughed weakly into his arm, you supporting him as you rubbed his back gently with a trembling hand.

You were afraid. No, actually, you were terrified. Terrified because you knew what had happened to Freddie, what was happening to him, what would happen to him but not what would happen to you. 

Freddie was more than just your lover, he was your best friend. He had been there for you since the very beginning and he was the only one who knew you inside and out as you knew him. 

With him decaying and dying from aids so rapidly while treading closer and closer to death's door, you didn't even know how you could bear to go on in a world without him. You knew his time was almost up, but you were too heartbroken to accept it. You couldn't accept It.

Freddie sighed quietly and looked over at you, a frown on his ghastly pale yet still stunning face. He was so terribly ill, he looked it as well, but he still maintained his incomparable beauty that would never leave him.

"You have that look again." He said simply, grunting a bit in pain as he scooted closer to you.

"Wh-What look?" You pretended not to know what he was talking about, but it was pointless as you knew he could always sense when something was wrong with you.

"That look you get when you're upset about this. About me." He whispered, sounding forlorn and upset as he wiped away a tear you weren't aware you had shed.

"I-I'm not...I'm not upset about or at you. I'm upset at myself." You admitted, a pang in the pit of your stomach as you spoke the truth.

"Y-Y/N stop-"

"I'm sorry Freddie, I know that's not what you want to hear from me but it's all I can bring myself to say. I'm so fucking sorry." You squeaked, more tears streaming down your face as you clung to him, afraid he would vanish if you let go.

"Y-You don't deserve this horrible fate...You're too pure and precious h-how can I live without you? I-I swear wh-whatever disgusting being did this to you should-"

"Y/N. Please, just listen to me honey, it's okay." Freddie said softly, doing his best to soothe you as you choked out relentless cries against his chest.

"I know you're afraid to lose me, but you don't need to be. I'm not gone yet, so let's just cherish moments like this while we still can. I'm not afraid to die and I never have been. I will always be with you dead or alive, I will always see and hear you no matter what. I know we've had our misunderstandings in the past but that's all over with. Yes there were bad times, but there were even more good times. That's what's worth focusing on darling, not what I'm going through or what's going on with me. What's more important is what's happened with us and how wonderful our run was. That's what's forth focusing on." Freddie said softly, willingly crying now himself as you sobbed more, hiding your face in his neck.

"I-I don't regret anything we've done together in all the years we've known each other nor do I regret the more recent years of-of us actually being together. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I will always love you with all my heart." He croaked, weakly sliding his hand up and down your belly as he rested his chin atop your head.

It was a frequent position for the two of you to lay in, Freddie loved cuddling you and would always make sure he was close to you when you were near.

 You were horrified of leaving him alone even for a second so you grew an attachment to that position too, knowing that some of the anxiety could always melt away with the love of your life right where you needed him. But to think that he wouldn't be there much longer...

You were too lost in thoughts to hear Freddie's soft singing, though you came back to reality as he turned your face so you were looking at each other.

"Love me like there's no tomorrow...

Hold me in your arms, tell me you mean it.

This is our last goodbye, and very soon it will be over.

But today, just love me like there's no tomorrow.

I guess we drift alone in separate ways,

I don't have all that far to go.

God knows I learnt how to play the lonely man,

I've never felt so low in all my life.

We were born to just be losers,

So I guess there's a limit on how far we go.

But we only have one more day together so,

Love me like there's no tomorrow.

Hold me in your arms, tell me you mean it.

This is our last goodbye, and very soon it will be over.

But today, just love me like there's no tomorrow."

You let him sing you to sleep as you laid in each other's arms, finding slumber.

You were a bit confused by the lyrics when you first heard the song, but you loved it regardless as Freddie told you he wrote it for you and that you never failed to indeed love him like there was no tomorrow.

Little did you know, that song would haunt your mind forever as the lyrics would come true.

The next day, his condition got far worse. 

And he never knew another tomorrow.

The end.

...So that just happened. I'm going to go cry.