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Summer plans

The next morning we're having a quiet day at the house. Apart from my plan to try and sway Liam (which actually ended up working) I don't have any concrete ideas laid out for the other things I want to do. I want to do more things with the girls too, they're getting to that age where they ask loads of question and are taking in so much information, but it's not like it's being forgotten. They're actually learning a lot and I want to utilize that. I know before Sophia's death, we had met and talked about some educational TV shows, games, and book that I could entertain them with when Tessie was a little older. Now I'm hoping to plunge into all of that again and find some great stuff, so that the two of them can be ready for school or kindergarten...depending on what I end up doing.

You'd think it'd be easy, just decide whether they're going to kindergarten or just starting first grade. There are so many variables too, I know that both girls would thrive in a school setting but I'm not altogether sure that I should let Liam Payne's daughter just go to school. I know the Payne's had low-key plans for a private school in the future. So I'm undecided on whether I'll be sending Cailyn next year when she's old enough or just keeping her at home and homeschooling them both until Liam is well enough again to choose for Tessie.

Until then I'll just try to stimulate their minds as much as I can. If I can make them interested in learning, I'll have considered myself to have succeeded. For now, I just want to focus on some summer activities and just get some things written down in my planner. Right now it's completely blank... "Girls!" I call them into my bedroom where I'm sitting on the bed. There are pens, papers, my notebook, and my laptop covering the bed and I move some to the floor to make room for the two girls who walk into my room a minute later. "I want you to think really hard for the rest of the day about things you want to do this summer, fun things. We're going to have a great summer and one that we all love, got it?" I wink at them and then shoo them off. I'll ask them again tonight at dinner, until then I think I'll do some research on things in our area and come up with some ideas to bounce off of them. 

I sigh and push my hair out of my face. I would love to get away from all the horrible things that have happened to Tessie's parents. I know she doesn't understand exactly what has happened, but I know her. I know she's sad and confused about why she can't see Daddy anymore, especially after her mother left her and she's been told she'll never see her again. I try to keep them busy, so maybe her mind won't wander and think about it too often. She'll surely have questions the older she gets though. I frown. I hope that Liam will be well by then. While I'm perfectly comfortable looking after her and having her live with us, when it comes to decisions like those I'm hesitant. Why? Because one of her parents is still living and both her grandparents are, as far as I know. I don't want to mess it up, that's something you can't. Lunch you can have late and you can burn dinner, but when it comes to talking to the child about their dead or out of sorts parents? It's on a totally different level, one I'll not mess up thank you very much. 

If all goes well and we all get lucky, I think to myself, maybe Liam will be better within a few months and he and Tessie can be together and be living happily. 

SHORTISH? Idk, but I'm going to take a week or so off to finish up with all my schoolwork and final projects and papers and stuff. So yeah ;) Catch yah then