A Losing Game

14. Over 📚

(Aurelia's Pov)
October 15th.
Before Hogwarts I never felt lonely when I was alone. I was always content.

But ever since I've been hanging around the guys, I don't like sitting alone anymore.

This is what I was afraid of. I asked the guys to meet me in my dorm.

"I'm excited. This is the first time you wanna actually hang out with us." Said Theo.

Fuck.

"Um I don't wanna hang out with you guys anymore."

"What? Why?" Said Theo.

"I don't know if you remember, but I wanted to stay away from friends. So before I become too attached I wanna stop."

"Why are you so against friends?" Said Mattheo.

"Because once I graduate I'm leaving. And I mean out of the country." I said.

The guys all looked at each other.
"Why are you leaving?" Asked Enzo.

"It's a long story, but I have to go. So there's no point in making these connections if they're gonna end."

"They don't have to end. We may not be as close, but it's not like we're never gonna speak." Said Theo.

"I have to start fresh, and that means cutting everyone off." I said.

"What no. I really like you." Said Theo.

Draco walked over to me.
"Does leaving have to do with the memory?"

"When will you shut up about the memory?
Just forget about it!" I said.

"I can't, not after what I witnessed. Aurelia you were crying all night, and then you went hysterical."

"But I'm fine now Draco. And that's the first time it's ever been that bad!"

"That's because you take sleeping pills to knock you out so it doesn't get there!" Said Draco.

"You're right, and guess what? I'll never forget my pills ever again, so just stop!" I said.

"Why won't you accept help?! We wanna help you!" He yelled.

"Why won't you accept that I don't wanna talk about it?!" I yelled back.

"Because I'm concerned. You made jokes about cutting yourself, you're making your ptsd seem like nothing, and I saw scars on your back!"

"What?" I said shocked.
I felt like I was gonna be sick.

Draco paled, and ran his fingers through his hair.

"I said you joked about cutting yourself, and made your ptsd seem like it was nothing."

"What did you say after?"
My voice cracked, and I felt my legs go weak.

"When I was holding you, your back was showing. And you have a beautiful tattoo, so I looked. I saw what it covered."

"Okay you guys need to leave now." I said.
"Aurelia please-"
"Leave now." I snarled.

I looked at the other guys, and they all had this disgusting face of pity.

(Draco's Pov)
She hates me, again.
"Okay I'm leaving." I said.

She pushed at all of us, and we rushed out.
The second her door slammed I heard it.

She was sobbing.

"Should we go back in there?" I said.
"Definitely not you idiot!" Yelled Enzo.
"Yeah you fucked up." Said Mattheo.
"Why the hell did you bring that up?!"
Yelled Enzo.