(Aurelia's Pov)
Suddenly Draco pulled up a chair with us.
"Are you two secretly dating?" He asked.
"No." Said Mattheo.
"You're always sneaking around, hanging alone together, clearly somethings up." Said Draco.
"We're just friends."
"You know what, it's gonna come out eventually." Said Mattheo.
Draco raised his eyebrows.
I sighed.
"I'm in therapy and Mattheo goes with me."
"Oh good. You have major issues you should've been in therapy years ago." Said Draco.
Oh.
"Draco." Said Mattheo sternly.
"Why hide this? And why Mattheo?"
"It's difficult to admit. And Mattheo's gets me the best when it comes to my issues."
"What about Enzo?" Asked Draco.
"I feel the most comfortable around Enzo overall. But when it specifically comes to my problems it's Mattheo."
"Wait do you know why you have those days?" Asked Draco.
"Yeah."
"Why?" He said.
"Draco it's personal. You're like the last person I wanna tell."
"Do you think I'm gonna make fun of you?"
I stared at the table.
"Fucking hell, I'm not that cruel." Said Draco.
"I'm bipolar."
"I should've known. Extreme mood swings, you've been through something traumatic which caused it, and you're not drinking, so you must be on mood stabilizers." Said Draco.
"You know about bipolar disorder?" I asked.
"When I was ten we thought my mom had it. Turns out it was short term depression from the loss of her father. But she's good now.
So how long have you been going to therapy for?" Asked Draco.
"A little over a month. I've been on pills for that long too. But don't tell anyone."
"Why? Theo and Enzo aren't gonna judge you."
Said Draco.
"I'm just not ready." I said.
"Well thats up to you. And if Mattheos ever unavailable, I can come with you to therapy." Said Draco.
"I'll always be there. The therapist helps Aurelia with accepting love, and learning to trust.
I need that too." Said Mattheo.
"And I wouldn't want you there anyways." I said.
"Why?" Said Draco.
"Because a big part of therapy is the therapist explaining my issues. I don't want you thinking I'm pathetic." I said.
"You know I don't hate you right? You're far from pathetic." Said Draco.
"Well sometimes you make me feel like shit.
And I can't risk that when it comes to my deep rooted problems."
"But Aurelia I just joke around with you."
"Sometimes you take it too far."
My voice broke and I felt my throat itch.
"Like when you said shagging me was disgusting.
Joke or not it hurt. Because sometimes I feel that way about myself."
Draco nodded and moved his chair closer.
"What happened to you doesn't make you disgusting. And I hate that I've made you feel that way. I'm really sorry."
"But wasn't it weird? Shagging me knowing what happened?"
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A Losing Game
FanfictionYou'd think starting a new school in year 7 would be stressful. But it's not, not for me. My goal is to focus on myself, graduate, and get the fuck out of here. Move across the world, leave this shitty place. It's not like my parents would miss...
