If Only You Knew

Poor Connection

Lester's POV

"What you mean no?" I mugged as I stood up from my seat.

I was tripping. I had to be. No way was my girl sitting in my face denying my proposal. She couldn't be.

"Lester we're not ready for this. Why are you in such a rush to get married?" Lee whined looking up at me with a dumb-ass look on her face.

"Who the fuck is in a rush? You the one who said wait until we had a year in, was you not?" I raised my eyebrow.

"That didn't mean propose on our fucking anniversary!" She shouted standing up.

"The fuck you getting loud for? What you want from me? One minute we talking about marriage and shit, now when a nigga ask you turn me down, really Taleeyah!?"

I was hurt. I put my heart out on the line for this girl and she spit in my face. Lee was quick to act like she wanted to be with me forever but as soon as I tried to make our dreams a reality, she shut me down. I waited on her like she asked me to but I'm starting to think that was her just stalling.

"You can't expect me to say yes just because! We have no reason to be married right now, you're being crazy." She folded her arms across her chest.

"We got every reason to be married!"

"Like what?"

I scoffed shaking my head. "Ion know maybe cause we love each other? Or cause we ont' wanna be with nobody else other than each other? We can't see nobody else in our lives? Or is that all just me?"

She let out a breath as she hung her head. "I do love you and I don't wanna be with anybody else but c'mon Lester, I'm only twenty." She looked back up with teary eyes.

"Stop using yo age as a weak ass excuse. You grown enough for everything else but when it comes to being with yo nigga now all of a sudden you too young for some shit. Give me sum better than that, bruh." I rolled my eyes.

I felt my heart skip a beat as I became more angry. I wasn't for the games Lee was tryna play right now. I see why Zay used to say don't fall for these bitches.

"It's not an excuse! What do I look like being somebody's twenty-year-old wife? We have so much life to live before we have to tie ourselves down to each other. Do you not get how much of a commitment marriage is?" She frowned tryna explain herself but I was done going for it.

"Explain to me exactly how being married to me will get in the way of us living life. You act like niggas is tryna keep you held hostage in the basement or sum! Just be real with me and quit playing these games, Leelee."

"What games?" She cocked her neck back looking offended.

"Youn wanna be with me for real."

She let out an exaggerated scoff and held her temples. "When did I say that? You think I'd be out here with you if I didn't wanna be with you? You're insane!"

"Nah," I shook my head. "You ain't seen me go insane. But I am stupid as fuck for thinking I could've wifed yo hoe ass up." I turned walking back up the lit walkway to go back in the house.