If Only You Knew

Lost Without You

Lee's POV

"Awwn you're nose is spreading." Tina flicked my nose with an amused smile.

"No!" I gasped covering my face.

She laughed obnoxiously throwing her head back and clutching her chest. "It's ok you're still beautiful. And the swelling will go down after you give birth."

"Really?"

"Well." She paused. "Hopefully."

I was over Tina's house to get the final details of the baby shower together. She begged me to plan it so I let her even though I was against having one at first. I was so depressed at the beginning of my pregnancy that I didn't wanna do anything, especially a baby shower but I eventually got over that and was so excited to be celebrating my babies.

I exhaled dramatically. "I'm so over this shit. I'm sick of being pregnant."

"You don't have much longer left."

"A couple more months." I sat back with a sigh holding my belly.

"You ok?" She gave a concerned look.

"I'm fine, just tired and my back hurts like a bitch."

"Tell my son to give you a massage, it will help."

I scoffed. "No thanks, I'd rather be in pain."

"What happened now?" She sighed.

"He's a fucking asshole that's what happened."

"Anything new?" She laughed.

I rubbed my tired eyes not sure if I should be discussing this with her. Tina was a good listener and she usually gave good advice but at the end of the day, she was still Lester's mom.

I haven't spoken to him since our fight the other day and I hated it. I'd gotten used to him being around but I think I pushed us back to square one because he's only texted me once saying that he bought a new playpen. He hasn't asked about me or anything since then. He hasn't reached out to try and resolve the issue at all.

"We kinda got into it the other day."

"Go on." She sat up giving me her full attention.

"We went to therapy and I guess tried to talk about why we broke up. Long story short the therapist said we both played a part in it. I didn't like how we were yelling at each other but I felt like we needed that to move forward."

"Anyways we left and as we were about to pull off he runs and goes to talk to some redhead who come to find out is his new "girlfriend" or whatever." I rolled my eyes.

"He's been sleeping with this girl but has been in my face every day! And he didn't once think to mention her, like why wouldn't you tell me you're seeing somebody? It just explains a lot." I ranted.

"Oh my." Her eyes went wide. "I don't even know where to start."

There was a long silence as Tina zoned out.

"Leeyah you gotta do better sweetie."

"What?" I sat up with a frown.