(✔️) The Villainess' Secret | Bang Chan

12 | Don't Trust Me

Chan's POV

Warning : slight smut talk 🔞

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"Still sleeping ?"

"Yeah."

"Wow— you really knocked her out."

Those teasing laughs embarrassed me. Unmitigated, they even eavesdropped on me and Liv's room when we're having s*x. They were absolutely crazy for this, even now they were still talking about it.

"Listen, listen, this is our Chief's moan— ahhh Liv, ahh I'm so close— AAAA OKAY OKAY I'M SORRY!" I kicked Han Jisung's butt. His ass deserved to be rewarded for his hard-to-control mouth. Dammit! I couldn't speak much today. My mind kept going to her, about our beautiful night together.

Liv was still in the room at the moment. When I woke up at 8, she was still in my arms. As I realized both of us were without any piece of cloth, I smiled, it wasn't a dream. I really did that with her. I looked at her peacefully sleeping face, she looked exhausted and I felt a bit guilty about that. I was probably being too harsh. But at the same time the memories of her facial expressions everytime she was c*mming really drove me crazy.

That scene kept spinning in my brain. She was so damn sexy, just with her moaning, her biting lips, and enjoying face, she could make me c*m without any stimulation. And believe me, even Maddie couldn't get my attention every time she wore revealing clothes. I never got aroused whenever she tried to touch me more.

Even so, my curiosity about Liv didn't disappear. She had too much to hide and it was hard to win against her. And about Hyunjin, I believed him without having to clarify because the evidence still didn't lead to my suspicions. My bad for being drowned in my emotions. Seungmin said I used to use my logic to solve with valid proofs. He said— no, people said I was 'that man' so I was being chosen to be a Chief. To be someone who leads people, I needed to decide, to be decisive, to be wise to make everything balance between logic and feelings. But now, I noticed my feelings dominating a bit too much–  since Liv's here.

"Seems like you don't really hate her much."

"I don't know." I sighed, Minho was the one who hated her the most after me. Back then, he told me to take action when she's being too possessive and ended up having an argument with her. And even at our wedding until now, Liv was still hesitant to interact with him.

"Whatever. But I don't believe her. I also don't believe you're really drunk."

I understood his concerns if I made the same mistake again. But the situation was different. My feelings were different. I thought I was the one who gave her more chances when I didn't have to. I pulled her closer when she tried to make a distance between us. I f*ck her when she didn't even try to seduce me. And I was the one who kissed her with all my clear mind. Yes, it meant I was sober. Minho knew while she was still thinking I wasn't. I knew what I did to her, and my heart said yes.

"And how about your Maddie?" Minho continued, and this was the question I hated more than I hated Liv.

"I don't know either." I closed my eyes and ruffled my hair. "We're all victims here. But if I can be honest, these past weeks I realized I have never been in love with her. There are some holes, some emptiness, like I know there's something wrong but I always deny it."

All of them looked at me confused so I chose to continue my explanation. "This is not related to Liv at all. Even before she came back, I was thinking of ending everything with Maddie because– you know— that proud thing if you could win a trophy every person wanted."