(✔️) The Villainess' Secret | Bang Chan

19 | Said, Many Times

Liverra's POV

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A week had passed since I met him— I meant, them for irritating my eyes in the hotel corridor.

I ignored his thousands of calls and texts. And knowing it was in vain, he then called Rui, asking her about me everyday. I was confused, like how could he ignore me after we met at the library then tried to explain after showing up making out with his girlfriend? Was I a toy? Oh God I didn't care anymore, so I asked Rui to tell him to just f*ck off. I couldn't let him do whatever he wanted. Since the beginning, I told him many times that I didn't want to hurt anyone. Like how if people knew we were secretly being romantic behind Maddie's back? I was okay because I used to be hated, but Chan? His reputation was on the edge of the cliff.

Oh funny me still thinking about him. But frankly, here I was, feeling empty because I saw Maddie posting a pic on Insta today, her sticking with him as she used to be like there's nothing happening. Okay, I'd be honest that my weak heart was hard to accept the scene I saw. Even though Chan really showed that he didn't love that girl and maybe this was his way of keeping our marriage a secret, still, there was fear in me that he only pretended to care about me.

I wasn't sure I'd be strong enough to continue all of this if it was true. Maybe I was just a stupid performer who was being laughed at backstage when I thought they liked me after the overflowing love. If there was another choice, I'd rather be directly insulted in front of the stage or become a clown who was obliged to be laughed at. It would be better if he still hated me, showing how much he didn't like this marriage and just treated me like a business partner from the beginning. It was easier to accept whatever he said about how evil I was than to accept affection without explanation. He told me that I was the worst person he had ever met, then he should stay on his word like a good Chief.

When we grow up, finding sincere people wouldn't be easy, because we'd be more individual, and be more careful to surround ourselves with people with the same life visions. There were more boundaries we had to make to protect ourselves. And those who wanted to break my boundary needed to prove that they could protect me better than my previous shields. But for him it was exceptional, he couldn't pass the line even if he had the passport.

"What else were you thinking, huh?"

Rui's boring scolding made my head throb. But she was right, I was thinking too much that— "If you keep overthinking like this, you won't recover!"

"Yeah— sorry." I held my forehead which was still hot. It sucks, I was physically much stronger when I joined my ocean-community. But it was true I overthink too much so I walked through the bad weather many times. Well, I technically tortured myself.

There should have been an important meeting today regarding the trip with all SA members, but it was canceled because one of the members didn't come. And it was me. Many texts and calls came in because I couldn't check my phone for two days. And today I had enough energy to just read it.

"By the way, your husband called me again today." She sighed, me either. He didn't give up that easily.

"And what did he say?" Okay, I knew he, my husband, would probably scold me for ruining the jobdesc as a good Vice and—

"He's worried—"

What? He wasn't angry?

"—and I really have to say that you're sick. He will come today. I don't know what time."

"What??" I glared, not expecting her to be so honest telling the truth. At least just to know the time was enough. I wasn't ready to face him in person again after days. My heart was unprepared.