(✔️) The Villainess' Secret | Bang Chan

38 | Short Chapter - Memoriae of Him

Memoriae of Him
Chan's POV

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    1    Flashback to the first day I met Liverra

I moved school when I was 14, and my mom told me to be friends with a girl named Liverra. I remembered she was the crying girl I met in my mom's friend's house five years ago with her name written in front of her door.

It was honestly so awkward to be forced to be friends with someone I met when I was such a kid, because right now that girl seems to have no friends. She was actually pretty though, but there was something weird— like darkness and desperation surrounded her. I asked some students and they said she was a weird girl, so I wasn't wrong. They said she was arrogant, unfriendly, not fun, and many bad things they mentioned. Her only good side was just— a rich daughter of EML.

"But she's pretty?" I made sure at least she had another good side, but they rolled their eyes as the response.

"She is, but we have many pretty girls here— even more than her?"

I sighed, I thought they were too cruel? I stared at her one more time while she sat alone at the school's park. She just stayed silent, letting the wind against her hair. She didn't look too much like what they claimed. So how about I tried to approach her? At least to be a friend like what my mom asked.

"Hey." I came towards her. I could hear them whisper like I was in danger of disturbing a sleeping dragon. "You're Liverra, right? I'm Chan— you probably don't remember me cos I haven't introduced myself that time. I was the boy with the chocolate cockle."

That girl immediately widened her eyes, smiled happily like a little kitten. She nodded— and I smiled knowing she remembered me. "Yes! Thank you. It wasn't the best chocolate I ate because my dad bought some from Germany. But I appreciate that."

Oh— so this was the 'arrogant' side they talked about. It was hurting me a little, but she was probably just excited to share what her busy dad gave her.

"Yeah, so happy for you, and—"

"That's Chan!" Some girls squealed— I didn't know who they were knowing that I was new. They were elbowing each other when I looked at them. But then, as they realized Liv was there talking to me, they rolled their eyes and were hesitant to approach me. Their reaction triggered Liv. She growled, glared at them, then just left while tossing her hair. I thought her reaction was quite normal? At least she didn't retaliate even though for me their actions were also rude.

I thought so until the next day the girls had a big fight with Liv. Liv started first by spreading bad information about them. They said she could do that by hiring someone to investigate and get the information. Since then, Liv has become more famous for her bad deeds. She was very easily triggered by the slightest reaction from people towards her. She only wanted to be praised even if it was fake. With her money she could get everything she wanted.

After some time, I also began to be trusted to become the class president because of my talent as a capable leader. And as a leader, I still had to try to face Liv and be wise. My friends would always complain to me if she did something bad and asked me to talk to her. The more intense my responsibilities were, the more Liv misunderstood my attention as 'love'.

Stupid me for being too nice to her, just out of pity, I accepted her as my girlfriend even though it ended in pressure. When I started High School, I also started to have a crush on Madelaine Hayes. Many boys wanted this sweet and kind girl. But if I broke up with Liv, I was too lazy to face the drama she would create. I also didn't want her to use her money to do bad things. I was trapped by my dumb action.

After Liv disappeared, I was finally free and could date Maddie easily. Maddie certainly didn't hesitate to accept me. My life was perfect, my achievements were soaring, I was increasingly famous as the number one man in school and Uni. Wasn't it a matter of pride to be in my current shining position and also to date our school's Queen Bee?

    2    Flashback to the days I fell in love with her

But isn't it unfair if an imperfect person wants another person to be perfect?

In the end, when Liv came back, I was bothered by the fact that she was no longer chasing me. It turned out that I was also an imperfect person who could be toxic with my selfish thoughts. The more she distanced herself from me, the more I chased her. The more she averted her gaze from me, the more I tormented for thinking about her all the time.

I laughed at myself who still didn't want to let her go. When she left, I was happy, but I was the one who was suffering now that she had moved on. When she said she no longer loved me, I couldn't accept it all. When I married her, my harsh words about her were the opposite of my heart. Seeing her walk down the aisle, I fell in love with her. Every day I fell more and more into her charm.

I realized that maybe I had loved her for a long time, since we met five years ago in her room with the lines she drew to never let me in. But I realized it too late. We used to love immaturely, but we grew and became better. And this time we were able to love maturely but at the wrong time. At this time, there were too many threats to separate us. There were many people who didn't want us to unite and live happily. Many competitors want to bring down EML in a very cruel way by destroying their one and only child.

The cockle chocolate I gave her always reminded me about our first encounter, even though it probably wasn't valuable for her. I realized I locked her in my heart a long time ago even though there was always a line for me to erase. There was always a line to prevent us together.