Future. | Satoru Gojo

to my sweet, sweet children

Dear Megumi & Tsumiki,

05/22/2009

My sweet, sweet children. I understand that things are scary, and I know that Dad is having just as hard of a time as you both are. Even though I cannot live with you anymore, I promise that I will keep in touch through these letters. The pain that this brings me is unbearable, and if you are struggling with this, I understand. Do not feel obligated to write back or read these, but know that Mom still wants to know everything about your life. You are both growing up so fast, and I am heartbroken to not witness it with my own two eyes. If you are angry with me, please don't be. I promise to keep my promise, I promise that I will be home sooner than later.

Mommy needs you to get strong. I need you to be stronger than I am, and then I will return home.

Remember that your mother loves you,

Mama

♡︎

To Mom,

06/ 25

It is Tsumiki writing to you. Dad told us that we didn't have to, but we miss you so much. Dad has been sad without you, and Megumi cries all the time when we are at school. Is there any way that we can come visit you now that it is summer? Dad told us he wouldn't let us, but if you say yes then it's fine. Love you.

The handwriting changes from girly and frilly, to messy and scribbled. Tsumiki to Megumi.

Hi Mom, we miss you. Why did you leave us? Are we not good kids? My first dad left me and now you did too? I wish you would just come back, I promise we will be better. Me and Tsumiki promise that we will do our chores and we will go to bed on time every night! Please just come home now Mommy. We miss you.

Love,

Tsumiki & Megumi

♡︎

A tear rolls down my face as I fold the letter up and tuck it back into the envelope. My heart aches at the thought of my innocent children blaming themselves. They holding the guilt for the trauma that I am responsible for bringing onto them. I place the envelope under the picture frame, the one from the night of New Years.

I am coming up on the third month of my pregnancy, and a barely- noticeable bump has begun to form on my stomach. It's been a very typical pregnancy, morning sickness, weird cravings, laziness... The new norm for me. I spend my days working on the house, and currently I'm in the process of planting a garden in the backyard.

After reviewing my finances and savings account, it turns out I am doing way better than I had assumed I was. I am set to live comfortably until the baby is born, and if I spend accordingly, I may be able to spend the baby's first months at home with them. This excites me, because stressing over work is the last thing I can afford to deal with while enduring this pregnancy alone.

At night, I miss them. The kids of course, but my love for Gojo doubles when I am alone in my bed. I can feel the baby growing, and it brings me comfort to know that a piece of him is inside of me. It's bittersweet, really. To know that I have a piece of him, while he simultaneously is missing any trace of me. At least I hope that he is missing me, perhaps I truly am the selfish one. I contemplate calling him, every waking moment I consider dialing his number and telling him the truth. I imagine showing back up to the school, my bulging belly and all. I think about how excited they would be to see me, at least Megumi and Tsumiki would be. Maybe then I could fully appreciate this pregnancy... But for now it's just me and whatever is growing inside of me. Shoko pops in here and there, and I never realized how much I need somebody to talk to until alone in my room. She usually shows up unannounced, dropping off groceries or pregnancy things she snags from the clinic. I wish she came around more, but I know she is busy.

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

a note from 7

hi! we are finally coming to the end of this volume, sad i know. my plan is to post short, mini chapters to fill in chunks of this time skip. this will allow me more time to begin writing volume 2, without putting this story on hiatus! please note that the time skip is very open to interpretation, it may seem like their are chunks of the story missing, but really it is in order to make this story more personal to you. the following letters to and from the children play a role in the character development of Megumi and Tsumiki... As for Gojo, who knows? ;)

I have a single, short chapter left, before I begin writing the shorter issues. I have a few ideas for the time skip, and volume 2 will hopefully be a tad bit longer. Following the next chapter, chapter 20, i plan to introduce songs that go hand in hand with the chapter. Like many other writers, music influences my writing heavily and I want my readers to fill these chapters as intensely as I do. I have so much planned for volume 2, and i promise that i will begin posting on a stricter schedule!

As always, much love my sweet, sweet, (y/n).