𝐒𝐨 𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐧

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𝐒𝐨 𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐧
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" m-mommy "

Taylor bit her lip, the urge to scream was real. She did not want this to be the way that Travis found out about her daughter but she wasn't mad at Colette, she had every right to come and find her mommy if she was scared and no one had told her that she wasn't allowed to do so. But Taylor was angry at herself, angry that she'd been stupid enough to think that Travis wasn't going to find out yet.

" mm baby, what's the matter " Taylor removed herself from Travis arms, avoiding any eye contact with him and made her way to the bottom of the stairs

" I h-had a bad dream about daddy, I'm scared mommy " her daughter uttered, making Taylor once again want to scream, the mention of her ex in front of Travis was gonna add salt to Travis's very open wound right now

Travis had every right to feel hurt, betrayed even. She'd led him on as if having a child wasn't a factor that would play into their relationship, but she needed him to understand why. And she would make sure of that later.

" sorry, I'll be back " were the only words that Taylor could say to him, she watched him sorrowfully nod as she carried Colette back to her bedroom.

It didn't take long for the 4 year old to fall back asleep in her mothers arms, being gently rocked like a baby. And Taylor kissed her one last time, she was everything to her and if Travis couldn't see that then I guess he wasn't the right one.

" travis, please hear me out " Taylor panicked, returning to the living room

" I'm listening..." she could hear the betrayal in his voice

" I was gonna tell you, I swear to you I was. I know we couldn't be something without this being a factor and I didn't intend for it to happen like this but please understand that I wasn't keeping it a secret to be sly, she is everything to me travis, absolutely everything and with what we've been through together, I can't let just anyone know about her with the hope they don't tell the public. So I was waiting until things between us were solid, where you could both feel secure " Taylor rambled

" it is a big factor Taylor, fuck it's a huge factor. I mean, I have to give it to you, your good at hiding her, I had no idea and I think the rest of the world would feel the same. But I can't help feeling a little bit betrayed, what did I do for you not to trust me? " he furrowed his eyebrows making Taylor feel even more remorseful

" it's not you Travis, it's me. You're perfect, in every way. I want things to work for us I really do, but i understand that this isn't something that comes lightly and not every one is willing to take it on. But she isn't up for discussion, she's part of me and I need someone who can appreciate that after all these years " Taylor didn't want to go into her past with Travis at the moment, but if she had to she would, she couldn't lose him yet.

" I don't know Taylor, kids are a big thing and don't get me wrong, further along the line I definitely want them, but at the moment, I'm not sure I'm ready..." Travis said, and the words cut deeper than a knife into Taylor's heart.

" I understand Travis, I do. And I'm so sorry to scare you away like this " Taylor wanted to scream and cry, she'd only known Travis a matter of weeks but the idea of losing him was enough to rile up those emotions

" I need time Tay, I'm sorry. I really like you, i hope you know that. But I just need some time to think and process, if that's okay? " he really wanted to run out the door and never look back, but he liked, maybe even loved Taylor and maybe her daughter was something he didn't mind committing to in the long run

" take as long as you need, I'll be here waiting, we both will if that's the decision you choose " Taylor was willing to wait, Travis was worth waiting for

" what's her name? " Travis was interested, if he was going to be in their life, he wanted to know a little bit more about her

" Colette... " Travis cracked a small half smile, it was a beautiful name, and he made a face to taylor as if to ask her to tell him a bit more " oh uh, she's 4 years old. Her birthday is June 17th. She loves princesses, her favourite is aurora since she wears a pink dress which happens to be her favourite colour " Taylor smiled, she obviously knew her daughter better than anyone, and loved to talk about her

" she does truly sound wonderful Tay, but give me time to process it. I want this to work for us " Travis told her, Taylor nodding.

Suddenly the night got a whole lot awkward but as Travis left, he gave Taylor a peck on the cheek as they pulled away from their hug. As she shut the door and locked it, she felt tears stream down her face. Despite Travis never turning them down, she felt as though she'd lost him. They were so happy, and now it's ruined.

2 weeks later

Taylor had in fact not heard a single word from Travis since that day, he'd not returned any messages or calls. He was very clearly ghosting her and she couldn't blame him, it was hard to just get on and accept a child in your life when you don't feel ready. Taylor could tell you firsthand, she was not ready to be a mom when those 2 lines appeared on the pregnancy test but she grew to love and accept it, and Colette saved her.

" mommy, why so sad? " Colette asked her, observing as her mother looked at her phone for the 1000th time this week

" I'm okay baby, don't worry " Taylor said, pulling her close

" where's your friend mommy? "

" what friend baby? "

" your big friend, he was tall. You sat on the couch with him? " Taylor was a little shocked at how much her daughter had observed, they do mean it when they say kids are aware of more than you think

" oh um he's just super busy at the moment baby, I'm not sure when mommy is gonna see him again " she sighed, she hoped he was just busy, but deep down she knew.

" I love you mommy, you the best mommy ever " colette held her mother's face with both her hands and kissed her, she was such a mommy's girl

" I love you so much more coco bear, more than you'll ever know "

" oh the door mommy, someone is at the door!! " Colette squealed, jumping up off her mothers lap. " it's your big friend mommy!! " she said, as she had run to the door and seen through the window who was there

" coco, wait for mommy to open the door " Taylor told her, not wanting her to ever get the idea of opening the door to anyone. To Taylor's surprise, Colette was right, Travis was stood at their door

" oh uh, trav? " Taylor stuttered, opening the door with Colette on her hip

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞☻
ahh I'm sorry another
cliffhanger! I decided to do
an early upload because I'm
not entirely sure when I'll be
able to post next. However I was
wondering, I've been writing for
ages and I actually have 2 other
tayvis books in drafts one being a
oneshot one. Would that be
something people are interested
in? Please let me know  <3