I recall many years ago when I was living in a bubble - a utopia,
Runnin' 'round the city and absorbing every little bit of,
Ecstasy, young and free, happy.
Looking back, I was so invincible,
And nothing was impossible - I tried it all.
No fear of repercussions,
Every night an introduction,
To somebody new, I could do no wrong.
Like a fossil I've been living under ground,
Hoping I'll be found someday.
Don't take a genius to figure this all out,
I'm drowning in this doubt of mine.
I don't feel right, I don't feel right...
Like a rabbit in a head a headlight.
I don't feel right, I don't feel right in myself.
Everyday, I'd wake up in the morning,
Never knowing in the evening what I'd be doing.
A liberating feeling when there isn't any structure to define your time,
Mine was mine, always.
Rose-tinted - I know that's what you're thinking,
And believe me, I remember all the bad times too.
I wrote this song as therapy - concluding that primarily,
I've done my thing; how do I bring the old me back?
I don't feel a thing.
No euphoria.
It don't mean a thing,
In this rabbit hole...
Like a fossil I've been living under ground,
Hoping I'll be found someday.
Don't take a genius to figure this all out,
I'm drowning in this doubt of mine.
I don't feel right, I don't feel right...
Like a rabbit in a head a headlight.
I don't feel right, I don't feel right in myself.
"Rabbit In A Headlight" - Autoheart
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"Jin-ki... how could you forget me?" Mingi whined softly, looking as though he was either going to burst into full blown tears, or kiss me on the spot.
To be honest, I don't think I was quite ready for either of those things to happen, especially not another kiss. On the one hand, the thought of kissing Mingi gave me incredible butterflies to just imagine. On the other, I had literally just been in bed with Yunho doing a lot more than just sleeping. So, as I always did, I found myself incredibly conflicted.
"I'm sorry, Min-ki... I didn't mean to forg--" I paused, scrunching my brows together tightly. "Yah! Wait a minute! You forgot me too, you fuckin' dingus!" I puffed my cheeks out in a huff, pushing The Goldfinch away from me playfully. "And besides, it's not like that was this lifetime. I had no idea who you were until a week ago. Hell, I still don't even know who I am exactly!"
"Not the point!" Mingi groaned, taking a step back to grin at me with that adorable lopsided smile of his. "How could you forget your extremely loyal, immensely loving, wildly handsome and most wonderful boyfriend, hmm?"
"You forgot to mention exceedingly humble," I rolled my eyes, looking away from him with a slight smile. "Besides," I returned my gaze to his, stepping forward to poke his chest lightly, "how do you even know we were together, hmm? You were just holding my hair back while I expelled a night's worth of booze in that memory."
"Of course we were together, paboya.~" The Goldfinch sang as he beamed down at me, tilting his head slightly so that his sunset strings fell over one chestnut colored eyeball. "Look me in the eyes and tell me with a straight face that you wouldn't fall in love with me in every life we've met."
Mingi crossed one arm over the other, and jutted out his chin with a smug hum. "Eyes that look exactly like yours did in that trippy ass vision we just shared, might I add. I don't think that's just a coincidence... do you?"
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Blackbird - ATEEZ Pirate!AU
Fanfiction"Of course. And, why not? Why wouldn't the ship be attacked while I'm tied to the fucking mast." I scoffed, rolling my eyes. When it rains, it pours. Literally. I awoke in a storm, tied to the mast of a foreign ship. I had no memories. I had no name...
