A Faltering self (Distorted Reality book 2)

Chapter 19- I WANT, to be there for, YOU.

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(Matt's POV)

I knock on Madison's door, but there's no answer. Trying again, it's the same.

What should I do?

The silence that I'm thankful for is now starting to make me wonder if it was the right thing to keep. I have no direction, and I'm now left on my own.

My hand is hesitant on Madison's door knob and I act before overthinking it too much.

She might need me, so let me be there in case she does.

There's no one rejecting me opening the door, no Madison either once I'm in her room. I look around the empty room before spotting a light peeking out of the closet.

"Madison? Hey, it's Matt, are you okay?"

Another set of absent responses to the repeated process of knocking and opening the door. I do this time see Madison as she's on the floor in the corner. Her head against the wall, looking up with her lips whispering something I can't hear and her thumb rubbing her left wrist. It's obvious that she's been crying by the black smudges around her eyes.

Oh, my Sunshine.

I get in front of her, and she has yet to notice my presence. Closer up, I can see even more how broken up she is. I touch her to let her know I'm here. She jumps with a frightened expression settling on her face which breaks me even more for her.

"What happened, Sunshine?"

Her face relaxes as she then takes her music out.

"Hey, are you okay?"

"I'm fine, I just needed a moment. I don't really do well with crowds."

Her tone tells me she's telling the truth, but I don't believe them. I doubt it was a crowd that has gotten her to this point. I've never seen her so broken, even after the bridge, so for her to be like this, it had to be something more.

Maybe she's finally fallen over the edge?

I'm not sure, I only know that now I have to be here for her. Before it was a must, so now it's even more of one. I have to be the one she can count on to keep moving forward. She can't handle this alone, and I don't want to make her.

"Madison, you can tell me the truth. You know that right? Nothing you say or do is ever going to scare me away from you. I'm here for you, always."

I mean it. I've seen a lot worse in life, so there isn't anything she could do or say that would frighten me from her. It's more me that's afraid of frightening her away.

"I had a panic attack..."

Sunshine...

I want to do what I can to help her through, but I'm not sure what that is. I don't want to overwhelm her more, so I leave it up to her.

"Okay, is there something I can do to help?"

She shakes her head before responding.

"I seriously am fine now, I just needed a moment away from everyone else to get my barrings again."