DRUGS AND LOVE || Hyunlix

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                               𝐄𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬
                               
You're nothing but a failure to us! I don't want you living in this house! You have no future! You are a failure!

You're disgusting

You're pathetic

Go and live on streets!

                                      _

He was sitting on roof of Yeounjun's house, biting off the skin from his already dried lips, taste of blood keeping him in reality.
Weed filled his lungs time by time,warming his cold body. His eyes shined as he stared at constellations in the sky, adoring them.

At least at the sky - Not his cursed face.
He wished to rip his skin off from his face, to never see those disgusting dots on his cheeks, his whole body.

He took one big drag of cigarette, his small sob making him almost choke on air. He coughed quietly, trying not to be loud.

His small quiet whines filled the lonely night.

Maybe he's right? I might seem so disgusting to others, it hurts...

It hurts.

Nobody cares about me.

He heard familiar car honking, he looked down, wiping his tears away to see Chan looking around to find a male. He sniffled and wiped his face roughly before throwing last part of cigarette on roof and jumping from there like he was a cat with 9 lives.

Chan startled when he saw male, watching as he made way towards his car.

"You startled me" he said, watching as blonde sat in backseat. "I thought you loved sitting in front seat." "I'm not on mood."
Finally Chan drove back to his house. tensed because male hasn't said anything since he sat in car.

"Some music?"

"Yes."

"Okay." Chan smiled and turned on radio, listening to whatever played. Chan hummed along unfamiliar song, finding it calming.

"Where's my playlist?" Blonde murmured, looking out from window to darkness around.

"Oh, i left it in my room, i was clean⎯ " "i told you to have it when i'm sitting in this cursed car and i don't want to hear all of your reasons why it's not here! It's fucking disgusting!"

He pushed himself on the seat and crossed his arms over his chest, looking angry. "Sorry" older whispered and looked in internal mirror to check on male.

He tried to change on different radio connections to find something that Felix liked, but there was nothing. Huffing and feeling frustrated Chan turned off radio.

                                   _

"Wake up sleepy head, we're home." Older murmured and shook blonde's shoulder.
Felix only groaned and curled himself up on backseat. Chan huffed and decided to play his role as a dad. "Okay, come here." He said with a sigh and knelt so younger could get on his back.

Chan took sleeping boy with piggyback in their bedroom, he slowly sat on bed, making sure Felix was secured as he helped other to settle on bed.

"Good boy, I'll be here soon, sleep well okay?" Chan whispered and pulled covers over blonde's shoulders.

After several minutes, Chan came back, he layed next to his best friend and stared at him. Making sure he was secured.

"C-channie..." Blonde whined, his voice shaky. Chan's instincts kicked in, he wrapped arm around male and pulled him closer.