DRUGS AND LOVE || Hyunlix

ᴀʟʟ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ

     
                              𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞

streets are wet and foggy. in the middle of the summer, clouds are grey and fluffy, sad and quiet. his dirty converses quietly splashing in puddles. he could already hear faint conversations and damn noise as he entered collage yard.

"hello?" man in his middle ages stood in entry, blocking blonde's way. "who's this?"

"Lee."

"oh, you. barely remember you already, come in then." taller let him go inside.

classroom wasn't filled yet, he entered, looking down at his shoes as he walked towards his usual seat where he sat like 4 times this semester. he finally came? i thought he already failed, i don't know girl, teachers let him stay in class every year.

just then Hyunjin and others entered class, laughing and joking. Yeji and Beomgyu sat together, Hyunjin and Seungmin took seats in corner, Hyunjin in front, Minnie in back. 

i hope they didn't notice me...

class started quickly after, teacher began to read list of students. "you seem pretty light today, class." she pointed out.

"Choi" 

"Hwang"

"kim"

"Lee"

"park" 

"Lee..."

"oh? someone remembered that learning is part of his life too" she said sarcastically before looking at male who was playing with zipper of his sweater. everyone glanced in corner.

Yeji and Beomgyu exchanged awkward glances, meanwhile Hyunjin looked at male in slight concern.

"where's books Lee?" "at home..." he mumbled. "and who's gonna learn from those, your cat?" "i don't have a cat." some of the students giggled.

"well bad for you... and the cat too." giggling. "anyways! go back to lesson everyone! today we're gonna repeat what we learned next week. In 1887..."

_

this is bullshit.

coming here is bullshit.

i hate it here, it's so bad, i can't even... 

i can't even recognize myself.

blonde sat in toilet room, door locked, clutching his sleeves tight. "fucking shit, it hurts..." he whispered hoarsley. maybe he went to hard yesterday... it burnt...

he tried not to move his arms too much so burning feeling might've fade. but it was so hard to do so because he was so cold.

who wears short cargos in this weather? well, he does.

suddenly door creack-opened. slow, quiet steps following after. it contiued coming closer to him. until...

"i know it's you." his voice was like that small dot of light in the darkest place ever. blonde tensed up slightly. 

Hyunjin put forehead on the door and said softly. "you okay in there?i can borrow medicine if you want or else... water?"

he's annoying...

why's he caring anyways?

"you left party really soon and... Changbin hyung told me stuff... not all details but i kind of know what happened so..." he took deep breath. "you two okay?"

Felix squeezed his thighs closer to each other before whispering. "not really, no."

"it takes time... but seriously are you okay? your voice..." "i'm  fine." shit... his said it louder than expected, did it sound cold? rude? Hyunjin nodded little bit and whispered 'okay' to Felix or more than to himself. "i'll go then..."