𝐑𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐲 𝐃𝐚𝐲𝐬
i love rainy days, yeah they're my favorite. reminds me of old days, when i couldn't sleep because thunder was so loud, my mom singing soothing lullaby to my ear, kissing my head.
she would tell me 'i love you and that's gonna protect you from storm.'
'love's gonna protect you from storm' i never understood it but i imagined my mom sheilding me from big thunder. that's it.
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today i decided to go to therapy meeting, i don't know what's that called: 'group meeting?' 'therapy session with strangers?' 'orgi-'
probably not-
well whatever.
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today's weather was better than last. but i brought my only sweatshirt just in case. i don't wear short sleeves but i might catch cold since i had nothing warm yesterday. when i entered i saw the same receptionist, Jisung in other room with big windows where i could see how he talked to girl sitting infront of him.
i decided to let him do his job and went straight to therapy room i was gonna be for rest of the year or so. i saw girl with chunky hair, next to her was boy with hood on. i sat in distance from them. slowly room filled with different strangers. middle aged woman walked last and smiled at us. she looked like she had one son, who struggled to get a wife but had great job. someone who craved to have grandchildren. anyways.
we- i mean they talked about how they first started self-harming by burning, cutting, starving. what caused it? they said it was family problems, their dad left or their mom did. didn't have friends or someone made them do it. they felt like it was only way to deal.
i felt it. all of it. i knew it all too well. but didn't say a word. it wasn't right time to do.
nobody mentioned drugs or being high... so i felt complex creeping up inside me. it was self defense. i didn't wanna end up in jail or somewhere worse.
it ended.
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i'm hungry. i'm starving.
i won't lie i miss Yeonjun's bad cooking. at least it was enough to keep living. now i don't even have a cent. should i go there?
no.
but i'm hungry.
Myself No.
just for today.
No.
he won't say no, he'll understand...
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he sat on bench near building. bouncing his right leg nervously. he waited and waited until students started to leave collage.
there he is.
Felix started walking towards older, he waved and called out "Hey" Hyunjin got confused by sudden appearence of blonde but still decided to go and see him.
"uhh..." they stood awkardly.
"are you busy?" Felix asked, his voice groggy from not talking too much today. Hyunjin looked down at his phone to check on time, he nodded to himself and looked up at male. "for now yeah, what's wrong?"
Felix looked around and nervously played with hem of his shirt. "wanna go for a walk?"
Hyunjin nodded with small smile. "yeah, sure."
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