DRUGS AND LOVE || Hyunlix

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Felix layed in white hospital bed, IV line trailed down to his hand.

His body was slowly cleaning from the pills he took. Making him feel at ease.

Hyunjin sat in chair next to the bed, occasionally checking time, for no reason. But mostly he was concerned about Lix.

He was too quiet.

"We can stay here if you want to. I mean we have to but..." He trailed off, unplanned conversations never went good for him. And here he was, waiting for Felix to speak up.

Hyunjin took deep breath and fixed blanket around Felix's chest.

Felix stared at sharp white ceiling with half lidded eyes, like he could find anything there. His throat felt tight, like if he said something he would breakdown just right there.

"I didn't mean to take it that far." Felix finally whispered, and there he was, fighting tears.

Hyunjin quickly faced blonde, suddenly feeling guilty. "I know... But I'm not angry..." He took deep breath. "You should've called me." Words made Felix's heart twist, vision completely blurring.

"I didn't think i deserved to." His voice broke at the end, making him feel smaller. More vulnerable. He draped free arm on his eyes, his breath hitching.

"Hey... No..." Hyunjin whispered, reaching out to hold Felix's hand attached with IV. "It's not like that..."

"Listen to me." He added.  "No matter how hard it gets," his voice started to tremble. "I'll be here okay?"

And for a single damn time, he let himself cry infront of someone. Because he was scared. He didn't say it but he got scared of losing someone he just found.

It was too soon. And he knew it.

"I can't watch you die." He whispered and looked down at their intertwined hands.

"I know i don't show it but, i care, okay?" He looked up at blonde's face again, trying to read his expression through the draped arm.

"I'm scared." Felix whispered back. "Scared of being alone, because everybody's leaving these days..."

"But i won't leave." Hyunjin promised, his larger hand tightening around Blonde's.

Hyunjin shifted in chair so he was closer to Felix, gently wrapping arm around his tense shoulders. "You don't have to pretend with me."

Slowly Felix put his arm down, revealing his puffy eyes and red cheeks. "I tried to fix your painting but... It's trash" he whispered hoarsley.

"That. Doesn't matter right now." Hyunjin whispered. "But it does to me. I ruined it. I ruin everything." His voice was thick.

"Shh, shh, shhh.." he pressed gentle kiss on Felix's locks, holding him tighter. "You're alive, that's all that matters."

"But i don't feel alive, everything's falling apart." His voice trembled.

"I'm here, i promise I'll help you..." He whispered, now pressing gentle kiss on Felix's temple. Blonde nuzzled deeper into Hyunjin's chest, making himself small.

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A few days later, Felix normally continued following Hyunjin to college to clean up.

It wasn't easy, but every time something happened, Hyunjin was always there to help him. And he loved it.

Today, he stayed for a night, i mean Felix was the one having keys so. Hyunjin decided to finish drawing today - to clean his mind. Meanwhile Felix sat in the hallway, fidgeting on his shirt, he didn't mind waiting for Hyunjin like this. As long as he was close, he was calm.