Challenging 5 || Ollie Lynch

I just can't

*Ami's pov*

I couldn't have asked for anything worse. Not the kiss obviously, that was divine. To be honest I'm still shaken up, my first kiss and it was like a dream. I mean up into Ollie's brother walking in. It was so embarrassing and me not knowing how to act made it 10 times worse. I was staring up at the ceiling from my bed battling my thoughts. I mean could just act like everything was normal even though that would be super hard as I'm not good with hiding my emotions. When I left, Ollie was a bit sad but he didn't seem that sad. I just really hope I didn't annoy him or make him anymore sad. I would text him but I just can't bring myself to, it was too embarrassing. Argh! Why did this have to happen to me?

Walking through Tommen's big school gates, I secretly wished I won't see Ollie. I mean the kiss was so amazing and everything I could have wanted until the last bit. I was a girl of dignity and someone else who wasn't my boyfriend seeing me that frantic and squirming uncontrollably isn't my cup of tea. By the way, I wasn't calling Ollie my boyfriend or anything. Ha ha how crazy would that be right? "Hey, wait up!" Of course that voice belonged to the one person I was lowkey avoiding. I slowly turn around dreading how much my face turned red. "Oh hey...Ols." I laugh nervously. "We okay?" Ollie says snatching my bag away from my shoulders and carrying it himself. I pick up my pace. "As cool as we will ever be ha ha ha!" I wince as his brows shoot up. "Yeah sure and I'm santa. Come on Ami, it wasn't that bad trust me. Joey and Aoife didn't mean any harm and weren't trying to embarass you in anyway whatsoever." Hearing that made me relax until I invisioned me hurrying out of his house and like clockwork, my shoulders tensed up again. We had now gotten to our next class, History, and thankfully we didn't sit directly next to each other. "Er yeah, like I said Ols, we are fine." I turn to him stretching out my hand. He gives me back my rucksack and in return I give him an awkward, crooked smile. "Okay bye now, Ols!"
"Er okay Ami." I turn around cringing when my back was facing him. This was so fucking awkward and I felt so bad about it.

"Watch out!" I hear someone shout at lunch making me duck so whatever was coming my way didn't hit me. However, I lost my balance making me full forward when I tried to get back up. 'Oof' was the sound that came out of my mouth when my chest collided with another. No not Kieron's, no not Liam's, not even Ciara's but guess who. Oh yeah that's right, Ollie's. "You okay there?" Ollie says pulling me back up and brushing me down. "Hey, um yeah don't even worry about it." He looks down at me suddenly, his almond eyes staring straight into my chocolate ones. "Sorry by the way." He whispered.
"Ha ha ha." My nervous laugh came back, oh my gosh. "You sure you're okay?"
I pick up my bag, making a runaway. "Thanks by the way!" I turn around cringing again.
"Er yeah, no problem." I hear Ollie call out in the distance. I really did feel bad about leaving Ollie out of the loop but I just couldn't face him right now. I just... couldn't.