Not a fairy-tale

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*Ollie's pov*

I slide my hand down her neck gripping it making her shudder once more. "Fuck, fuck, fuck!" She pulls back putting her hands on my chest to help with it. "Shit!" She shakes her head in her hands.
My brows furrow as I grip her arms. "What's the matter?"
"Shit." She looks up to me, her tears clouding up her eyes and streaming down her face. "I'm a hypocrite." Her eyes widen when she comes to that realisation.
"No you aren't, baby." I wipe away her tears with my thumb and then tilt her chin up.
"Yes I am." She collapses onto the pavement letting the rain fall down on her to mirror her mood.
"How then?" I join her.
"I got so mad at you for cheating when you didn't mean to but then I just cheated." She weeps and my jaw clenches when I remember the details. She is still with Holland. "I'm even worse." She shakes her head. I pull her into my chest as she grips me tightly.
"I can't, Ollie." She looks up at me, her chocolate eyes searching mine. "I can't."
"You can't what?"
"Keep on cheating."
"Who says you have to cheat?" I ask her as she looks around the place. "Do you want to stay with him?"
"No one compares to you, you know that." My tummy flips as the words run out of her mouth. "But I just can't."
"You keep saying that but you didn't explain why." My jaw ticks as I imagine the worst scenario.
"It's okay." She pulls up to her feet and paces around.
"What is that it?"
"I can't cheat, Ollie."
"I know that bu-"
"No buts. I need to pull myself together."
I frown but then give up, sighing. I can't force her to be with me, if that's what she wants, that's what she will do. "I'm going to drop you home."
She pulls on my arm hastily, tears still falling. "Please don't be mad at me, Ollie. I can't bare it. Not you as well, I thought I would always have you."
My eyes widen as I pull her in. I crouch down and stare into her eyes. "Now you are scaring me, Carter."
Her whole frame shakes. "Are you mad?"
"Of course I am not mad, baby. It's your decision so you will follow through with it."
She sighs, wiping her tears. "Okay." She peers up at me. "Thank you, Ols."

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