(Don't) say you love me - yeonbin

26.

When Gyu promised me that we would only stay at the party for three hours, I immediately knew that wouldn't happen. My suspicions were confirmed when the man reached for vodka, and he was only supposed to drink beer. I didn't want to forbid him anything because I fully understood his needs. He and Taehyun weren't an official couple, but that's exactly what they acted like. They were constantly holding hands, hugging, whispering tender words and kissing, regardless of the presence of others.

That's why everyone around, especially me and Beomgyu, was surprised when he entered the party hugging Mingyu. Had he really been avoiding my friend all week, letting him believe it was his fault and that he had done something wrong just to make out with someone else on the side? I always thought Taehyun was a thoughtful man who, instead of cheating, would simply talk about losing his feelings. But I was clearly wrong.

"Do you want to leave? We'll buy some alcohol at the nearest store and hide in my place. You know very well that my parents won't say anything, and they'll even write us an excuse for tomorrow." I brushed Gyu's hair away from his forehead and smiled softly. The man closed his eyes for a moment.

"I won't run away from him, Jun. It's him who should feel bad, not me." He looked at me with determination and I nodded.

"Okay, but remember that my offer stands forever. I don't want you to sit here and suffer."

"Do you want me to feel better?" He asked suddenly, moving closer. I bit my lip, resisting the overwhelming urge to simply pull away. He's Gyu after all, he would never do anything to hurt me. With that thought, I relaxed and grabbed his hand, squeezing.

"Of course. I'll do anything."

"Anything?"

"Mhm." I murmured, but immediately regretted my words as he crossed the distance between us and connected our lips in a light kiss. I placed my hands on his shoulders and pushed him away gently. Gyu looked into my eyes, but then looked down at my lips.

"We can't. We are friends, honey, you will regret your actions tomorrow."

"I will not." He assured eagerly, cupping my face in his large hands. "Not when I've dreamed of this moment all night."

"What?" I asked stupidly, opening my eyes wider. Before I could get more information out of him, he kissed me again.

“What the hell, Yeonjun?!” Soobin grabbed my elbow and pulled me up hard. I staggered, but the blonde didn't let me fall.

"It's not what you think, Bin!" I assured him, hearing how pathetic it sounded made me grimace.

"Really? So you didn't just cheat on me with your supposed best friend?! Tae was right!"

"Tae was right about what? He's the one acting like a complete asshole!"

"Because there's a reason for it!" Our voices were getting louder and louder, which attracted the attention of others.

"Can we talk about this in private?" I lowered my voice, squeezing Soobin's hand in desperation. The blonde looked at me for a long time before his face softened slightly.

"Okay."

"Wait here for me, okay?" I turned to Beomgyu. My friend narrowed his eyes and grabbed my arm.

"Don't go, please." He groaned pitifully, trying to pull me down next to him. Soobin tightened his grip on my hip, and I knew it would end badly if the situation wasn't resolved soon.

"I'll be right back and take you home. Just wait for me for a while and don't move from here, I wouldn't want anything to happen to you, okay? I promise I won't leave you."

"Okay, Junnie." Gyu finally let go and I breathed a sigh of relief. I straightened up and nodded to Soobin that I was ready. I was afraid to leave my friend like this, but I really needed to explain this whole misunderstanding to Bin. We went out into the corridor and surprisingly there were few people there, too busy with themselves to pay attention to us.

"Explain." Soobin pulled away and I felt all the warmth leave me. I wrapped my arms around myself, but it didn't help.

"Yes, Gyu and I kissed, but I didn't want to, he just did it so fast that I didn't have time to protest. It didn't mean anything, Gyu is drunk and I suspect he wanted to take revenge on Taehyun for daring to come here with another men, ignoring him. We don't feel anything for each other, it's just a mistake."

"I may believe you don't have feelings for him, but are you sure the same can be said about him?" Soobin raised an eyebrow, annoyed. “You want to know why Taehyun is behaving this way?"

"Of course." I responded hesitantly because I felt this information would change the entire dynamic between our group.

"Beomgyu drunkenly confessed to Taehyun that he loves you."

"It is impossible." I shook my head, taking a few steps back. "I mean, he loves me, I have no doubt about it, but like a brother. He's never done anything to indicate any romantic feelings."

"So you're saying Tae made it all up and cried for several nights just to make me believe it? Why?" Soobin ran his fingers through his hair in frustration, and I could see how much the whole situation was bothering him. His eyes were puffy and tired, and his body was cramped, as if he couldn't fully straighten himself.

"Maybe he just misunderstood it?"

"What about today's kiss then?" He frowned and clenched his hands tightly into fists. "For fucks sake, finally open your eyes, Jun. He wants to be with you. How blind can you be, huh? Don't you ever see someone love you?"

"I'll talk to him once he sobers up. I'm sure you're wrong this time. I know Gyu better than all of you, he doesn't love me. You haven't seen him talk about Taehyun, he's been crazy about him since we were thirteen, it's obvious in his every word and looks. He had always dreamed of a chance to get closer to him and now that he finally had it, he simply decided to waste it by confessing what he had supposedly kept secret for so long. Don't you think there is something wrong here?"

"The only thing that is wrong, is how naive you are. I still want to be with you, Jun, but you have to choose. Me or him."

"You have to be joking!" I shouted, throwing my hands. "You can't make me choose, Bin!"

"I think I just did it." He rolled his eyes and grabbed my hands. I take them away, glaring.

"If you think I would ever choose anyone over Gyu, you are wrong. He was the one who was there for me when I had no one. He was the one who always defended me and supported me, listened to me cry when my boyfriend cheated on me. I will never give up on him, so... It's over, Bin. I hope you find another boyfriend, this time a real one, who you feel something for."

Silly tears welled up in my eyes as I waited for his response, and it didn't come. I turned on my heel and went back to the party, wiping my face. Luckily, Gyu was right where I left him. Worse, he was sleeping soundly and there was no way I could walk him home myself. That's why I asked Jay for help, and he gave it to me without hesitation. I definitely need to buy him something delicious for this. When I got myself and Gyu ready for bed, sank into the comfortable bedding and let my friend snuggle into me, I quickly discovered that I was in for a sleepless night.

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Trouble in the paradise 🙊
Do you really think that Beomgyu have a feelings for a Yeonjun or this is just a misunderstanding?
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