(Don't) say you love me - yeonbin

30.

"I swear if you try to kiss me I will kick you so badly that you will never be able to have children." I warned as soon as my feet touched the floor and I backed away so that there was quite a distance between me and Soobin. The man was looking at me like a predator would look at its prey, which I didn't like.

"So it's a good thing I don't want to have them with any woman, and as far as I know you can't be pregnant."

"Even if I could be, I definitely wouldn't want you to be the father." I crossed my arms over my chest, squinting. Soobin tilted his head to the side, a few strands of hair falling cutely onto his forehead. Damn, all that time away from him and he still had the same effect on me. If this continues, he won't attack me, I will attack him.

"What's wrong with me, huh?"

"In theory, nothing, but I would like to have something going on with the future father of my children."

"And we don't have anything going on beetwen us?" He raised an eyebrow and took a step forward. Of course, I withdrew, but I didn't have much room to maneuver because there was a wall right behind me.

"No. And you only have yourself to thank for that. You told me to choose, and I did. I haven't changed my mind since then, Soobin. You will never be higher in my ranking than my family, which includes Beomgyu."

"I was drunk and jealous at the time, Jun." Soobin's tone of voice softened, as did his facial features. "Under normal circumstances, I would never make you choose, I swear. I wouldn't want anyone to do that to me, so I wouldn't make you do it too. I'm sorry, Jun."

"And this sudden change of heart is only out of the goodness of your heart, right? It wasn't influenced by Beomgyu's diary, which I suspect you finally decided to read?"

"Guilty." He smiled slightly, rubbing the back of his neck with his hand. "I know you'd like to hear something different, but I won't lie. Maybe if it weren't for the diary, we wouldn't forgive you any time soon. But that just goes to show how much we care about you."

"How much you care about us? Seriously, Soobin?" I laughed mockingly, rolling my eyes. "If you and Taehyun cared, you would listen to us instead of acting like assholes. I told you from the beginning that there is nothing and there will be nothing between me and Gyu. All you need to do is use your brain instead of focusing on your pride. I don't want to be with someone like that. What if you misunderstand again when you see me closer to Gyu or another friend of mine? Will you make me choose again? Will you break up with me when I decide to have my own opinion?"

"No." He denied it immediately, crossing the distance between us. And even though my body didn't want to listen and craved his touch, I forced my hands to tighten on my pants instead of his shirt. "I will never make that mistake again, Jun. I can't promise you that I won't get jealous, but I can promise you that I will always want to talk first instead of jumping to some wrong conclusion. Please, Jun, give me one more chances."

"I gave you a chance when you told me to forget about the whole incident from a year ago and be friends with you. I gave you a chance when you suddenly said you wanted something more, even though my whole mind was screaming that it was a bad idea to get into anything with you serious. It was Gyu who talked me into trying, that maybe love isn't that bad and I'm the only one who presents it in only dark colors, and how did you repay him?"

"Jun..." I saw pain and guilt in Soobin's eyes and it broke me. I looked away as tears formed in my eyes. I bit my lip hard to control myself. Soobin grabbed my chin with two fingers and forced me to look at him again. "I'm gonna say sorry to Gyu. If necessary, I can beg him for forgiveness. Just please don't erase everything that happened between us. I can't live without you."

"You were ready to do this if it weren't for the evidence of our innocence." I stated stubbornly, even though all the strength that made me fight him had practically left me. "It was doomed to failure from the beginning, Bin. We got together to make Sunwo leave me alone and he did, he moved out, and as far as I know, he already has a boyfriend whom he loves very much. Yuri has also given up and is now chasing someone else. Your parents won't force you to be with her anymore. So why should we be together, huh?"

"Because that was never what I wanted. Haven't you realized yet that I've been in love with you ever since I saw you, Jun?" I opened my eyes wide and my heart began to beat faster. "You're beautiful, kind, feisty, and damn smart. You're everything I've been looking for in a future partner, and I'd be a dummy if I let you go without a fight now. I love you, Jun."

"I…" I started, but I didn't really know what to answer. Soobin laughed softly at my reaction, cupped my face in his large hands and placed a short kiss on my forehead.

"I know this is a shock for you. And I don't want you to answer me now. Just think about it, okay? I'll wait for you, even if it takes several years, because I know it's worth it." The man moved away and I could barely keep myself from lunging at him. There were so many conflicting feelings mixed within me that I really didn't understand anything anymore. Now I needed my best friend to put some sense into my head. "See you at school, baby."

"Bin..." I whispered after him, but not loud enough for him to hear and actually stop. I fell to the floor as my legs gave away beneath me. I rubbed my hands against my face and jumped as the loud sound of an incoming message cut through the silence. I barely took the phone out of my hand and cursed when I noticed it was Lix asking if I still wanted to go on a date. After making sure that Gyu had already joined the company and was leaving as well, I stood up, took a deep breath and prepared for a few hours of pretending that everything was fine.

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I just wrote the epilogue to the whole story and I'm excited to share it with you. I can't believe that so much time has passed, I've only just started writing and publishing it, and here we are, approaching the end. I was writing about the new fic in the previous chapter so I'll tell you something about it now. It will be about Yeonjun and Soobin, of course, what else. The title is "Angel of my dreams". Jun will be a cheerleader and Soobin will play volleyball. The whole action will take place at school and it will be enemies to lovers at the beginning, but not so obvious and it will have a lot of fluff. I will reveal more in the next chapter, but I hope that I have already interested you a little.
Have a nice day, darlings 💙