Accidents II

chapter 51

DAMON

i grab my malboro pack and get on my way back home to mia but when i walk out of the shop to my car i notice evelyn and a couple of other girls with her, including trish.

i walk as fast as i can to avoid them but trish catches me and taps evelyn's shoulder pointing in my direction.

unfortunately evelyn spots me before i can get into my car

"damon!"

"just leaving," i say but that doesn't budge when they all walk towards me anyway.

for fuck sakes.

"where are you going in such a rush?"

"home."

"right, how's mia?" evelyn asks.

i can tell evelyn finds mia attractive, im not a fucking idiot.

"we're good."

"you're coming tonight, right?"

i shrug my shoulder.

"it'll be fun, we all miss having you around."

i cant help but hear the whispering and giggling behind evelyn.

"he's busy with his new project," trish comes towards evelyn and i.

i get it she's pissed i ghosted her, but that's not my problem anymore? i have stopped hanging around with them all not just her. as soon as mia came back into my life things have gotten better for me, and i'd rather keep it that way.

i cant remember half of anything when she was gone, it was all a blur, no it was all drugs, partying and alcohol.

"walking away now," evelyn uncomfortably waves to the rest to leave trish and i alone.

"what's your problem?" i finally let out.

"how could you easily move on without a word?"

"mia and i have history, besides i left everything behind."

"you should've thought about that before starting something with me."

"give me a fucking break" my voice raises, "we were messing around."

"i let you have sex with me."

"so what?" i say but regret it as soon as i say it.

her face is full of anger "i lost my virginity to you, it was a big deal for me and you made me think you were special."

"i made a mistake trish and i'm sorry, i was at the lowest point of my life."

"we had a connection" she steps closer, "i still believe something is there." she touches my chest with her hands.

"i don't think you understand." i move her hand away.

"damon you know we are bound for each other, how can you explain us crossing paths all the time?"

i step away from her a little, i feel nauseous. is she serious?

MIA

as i'm almost finished my makeup i hear the door swing open and rush to go see if it's him.

"hi" i say happily seeing him walk towards me.

damon forces a smile, and pulls a pack of cigarettes from his pockets.

"you know to not smoke in the house."

"i'm just on my way out," he makes his way to the backyard.

he's acting so strange?

i walk to the cottage after him and find him smoking while sitting on one of the chairs. "is everything okay?" i lightly say but he doesn't say a word. i sit on his lap and he lets me, he puts his hand on my bare leg, caressing it. i turn to damon to give him a kiss on the cheek, but he doesn't seem to be in the mood.

the air is thick with smoke and he looks nervous or even afraid or maybe even upset, i try my best to read his expression.

"where did you go?" i say almost inaudible touching the collar of his shirt.

"do you really want to go to this party?" he looks at me.

"i think it would be nice if we went out publicly more often..why what's wrong?"

"nothings wrong mia."

"clearly something is on your mind."

he lets out a heavy sigh, "i don't know how to say it."

"try damon," i push back the hair hanging above his forehead.

he looks at me for a split second before parting his eyes from me again "i want to be more honest with you, and it's only fair if i tell you this now before you hear it from someone else."

"what is it?" i eagerly ask.

it takes him awhile to come up with the words, but he finally commutes when he shifts into his seat.

"when we were apart, i've been sleeping with a girl."

i already feel so completely uncomfortable and i can tell damon feels the same way.

"she only told me now-"

"you're still talking to her?" i cut him off, "did you go see her just now?" i get off of him.

he panics, "no i didn't, i just saw her around."

"and you want me to believe that?"

he gets up off of his seat and suddenly i feel ten times smaller than him when he looks down at me.

"you remember trish from our date."

oh my gosh i knew it, "yes?"

"i haven't spoken to her ever since you came back okay? it's just i saw her when i was on my way back home to you today." he swallows and struggles to finish what he was saying.

"damon just be clear and up front with me right now, what's going on?"

he forces his mouth shut, he looks nervous.

"damon please you're scaring me," my heart feels like it's beating out of my chest.

"i got her pregnant."

my heart sinks, i feel like i'm going to choke.

"she got rid of it as soon as she found out and didn't tell me anything about it until now, i had no idea."

his words come out fast but my headspace is not entirely there. my heart is broken, i feel my body temperature heat up and i can no longer stand being next to him or want to be near him.

"it's been itching at my brain mia i'm fucking sorry."

"i have nothing to say to you," i say ready to walk away from him, i cant even look at him right now.

"mia please don't leave," damon's voice breaks and he follows me begging me to stop.

"get away from me." i shout at him as he freezes in his spot.

i cant take this anymore, it's all too much.

as soon as i get into the house i pack my bags aggressively putting all my things into my suitcase.

"don't do this," damon watches me while he stands in the front doorway.

when i think i have everything i try to get away from him trying to block my way to get out.

"mia i'm sorry, please don't leave like this."

"how could you," i push at him, "how could you be so careless."

if i stand in front of him any longer i will cry, scream, and especially i cannot imagine what terrible things i might call him.

"you cant leave." damon grabs onto my bags and takes them from me.

"give them back!" i start throwing my fist at his chest but it doesn't seem to work. "you know what, keep it!" i throw the other bags in my hand at him and walk out of the door.