TW: Mention of Suicide/ Selfharm
Homophobia
Anxiety
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A few days later
Y/N's POV
"What exactly do you mean, what is weird between you and Emily?"
JJ asks me sensitively and I can hear in her voice that she actually knows exactly what I mean.
Since I got out of the hospital, JJ has called every day and spoken to me and Emily, so she probably knows exactly how things are going with us.
But I appreciate that she also wants to understand my perspective on things without bias.
"I don't know, JJ.
There's so much unspoken between us and I have the feeling that Emily always thinks very carefully before she says or does something.
It seems as if she's afraid of breaking something, or stepping on my nerves...or...breaking me."
A big lump forms in my throat as I think about how much this is affecting me.
I try not to show it most of the day, try to act like everything is OK, but JJ's empathetic nature reaches me even through the phone and makes my facade crumble.
"Emily seems so unsure and almost intimidated and I...
....I feel the same way.
I'm so afraid that she's seeing me with different eyes now...
that she's realized that she....."
I don't dare to express the deep fear that keeps me awake at night,
I don't even dare to think it.
"...oh, I don't know.
It's all so incredibly tense..."
I lean my head against the cool tiles of the bathroom wall in front of which I'm sitting, pull my good leg up to my chest and wrap my free arm around it.
The faucet is running quietly in the background, not to drown out my conversation, but rather to calm me down.
Since I woke up, silence makes me even more nervous than before.
Whenever its quiet, I feel like I'm in the meaningless darkness that the coma trapped me in.
"Oh, my sweet Y/N.
I can only begin to imagine how overwhelming this whole thing is....
For...the both of you.
You have experienced really bad things and this whole situation, this case, has shaken you to your core.
It wasn't just your health that was at stake, but your belief in the good, your belief in yourselves and your love.
And then.....we were so worried ....
and I can hardly imagine how frightening the coma was for you.
For a long time we weren't sure if we would ever see you again,
Emily almost went crazy.
For days she did nothing but pray for you to wake up.
She blamed herself for not protecting you..."
JJ's voice sounds sincere and I hear the pain that resonates in every word she says.
Tears well up in my eyes as I imagine Emily and JJ sitting by my bed with nothing else to do but wait.
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