I See you, Y/N. (Emily Prentiss X Reader)

-16- Safe

A/N: I'm sorry for scaring you with         
         the cliffhanger!
         I hope I can make it up to you with
         this chapter🫶

TW: Hospital
        wounds
        surgery
        Anxiety
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Emily's POV

"What's wrong? Is she okay?" I ask fearfully as all three of us jump up and group around him.
JJ's hand is resting on my lower back, to support me in case his words are about to blow me away.

"Well, that's hard for me to answer." He says with a serious expression.

We are all holding our breath and expecting the worst.
He seems to see it in our faces, because he adds reassuringly:
"She survived the operation.
But there were a few complications and unfortunately at this point, we can't say  whether her knee will recover from the damage."

"But she's alive?" JJ asks because I can't.

I try to understand the words, but my ears are ringing and everything starts spinning.
I have difficulty staying upright.

She's alive.
Y/n is alive.
My y/n is alive.

The doctor nods.
"Yes, she's in her room now, if she's fully awake you're welcome to go to her.
But please take it easy. Her body has been through a lot and her psyche has probably endured even more.
We won't be able to assess the full extent of the damage until some time has passed."

Tara asks the doctor a few more questions while JJ leads me to the side by my arm.
Then I feel her pulling me close.
She wraps me tightly in her arms and only then do I realize that my body is wracked with sobs.

All the tension of the last hours and days, all the worry that y/n is dying or already dead, that I have lost her...
All of that was resolved by the doctor's words and the wall behind which I had hidden my feelings was torn down.

I sob shakingly in JJ's arms and feel like I'll never stop.

JJ strokes my head and just holds me.

I don't know what I did to deserve a friend like that. I treated her like shit and now she's just there for me and holds me.

I lift my head to look at JJ and see tears on her cheeks. She smiles at me and I can tell that a weight has been lifted from her heart too.

"She survived." I whisper, more to myself.
"Y/n survived." JJ replies, relieved.

I pull myself out of her arms and wipe my face with my sleeve, then run a hand through my disheveled hair, hoping I don't look as upset as I feel.

"She's in room 285. The doctor said we can go to her, but we shouldn't overwhelm her."

Says Tara, who has joined us again. She looks at JJ and me alternately and then smiles a little.

"Maybe you two should go in first. I can wait here," she adds quietly.

I shake my head and put a hand on Tara's shoulder.
"All three of us are going. Y/n has been through hell....for the second time.
When she wakes up now, she needs every nice face around her that we have available.
She should see..."

My voice breaks and I clear my throat to stifle the rising sobs.

"She should see that she is safe..."
I murmur and don't look at either of them.