I See you, Y/N. (Emily Prentiss X Reader)

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A/N: Hey lovelies,
Sorry this chapter took a little longer, I had trouble writing it.
The idea was there, but I was sobbing most of the time because it touched me so much.
(I guess it's not a big surprise when I say that Y/N and I have some parallels and her mum is very similar to mine. That makes writing this story so easy and so difficult at the same time 😬)
But it also somehow healed something in me to write this chapter, so I hope it feels the same for you.
Remember: You are loved🫶💜

TW: mention of self-harm
         Childhood trauma and the effects
         Self-doubt
         Breakdown
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Emily's POV

"And how are you, JJ?"
I ask and place the pizza boxes that Y/N and I bought from my favorite Italian restaurant on the living room table.

"Okay, I think. I gave the kids a big hug, made myself a cup of tea, and am about to go to sleep."

"You sound exhausted," I say, furrowing my eyebrows in concern as I get plates and glasses from the kitchen.

"I am...It was a tough case and a long day. But it will be okay."

"Can I do something for you? Support you in some way?"

"No, Emily, everything is fine. I can handle it. We have been through worse."

"I didn't doubt your strength, JJ.
I know how much you can endure. But just know that I'm thinking of you and that I'm here if you need me. I'm not just saying that as Chief, but as a Friend."

"I appreciate that, thank you.
Yes, this case really affected me. But I think right now I just need some sleep."

"Thank you for being with Y/N the whole time. I know how hard it must have been, first following the chat and listening to her talk to Mary and not being able to do anything."

"Not at all, actually. I also thought that it would affect me more. That I would feel like I was with...
Of course, the topics were tough but it was remarkable to watch her.
How she put herself in the other person's shoes.
And to see how far she has come. How strong she is to fight against all these thoughts and feelings inside her day after day.
That was impressive."

We are both silent for a moment and I guess we are thinking exactly the same thing.

This case affected all of us deeply. And we were both worried that Y/N might get carried away. That revealing so much of her inner self would be too much for the beginning.

"I was just glad that we were there.
Of course I noticed that it really affected Y/N. That's understandable.  How is she now?"

JJ sounds worried and speaks from the heart.
I look towards the hallway and hear the water in the shower gently running.

Y/N wanted to wash up the day when we got home and I can understand her.