I See you, Y/N. (Emily Prentiss X Reader)

-22- safest place in the world*

TW: Anxiety/ Panic
ED
Suicidal Thoughts

Smut Warning again 😉
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Y/N's POV

Her eyes widen and I can clearly see that my suggestion is doing something to her.
She seems genuinely amazed by my boldness and I am too.

"Are you sure, you want..." She starts and something flashes in her eyes as I let my hand move between our bodies down to her chest without taking my eyes off her.

I slowly lick my bottom lip as my fingers twist and lightly tug on her nipple.
Then I lift my head from the pillow to kiss her neck.
I nibble her skin gently as I continue to knead her breast.
A soft moan falls from her lips and her eyes close briefly as she gives in to the sudden feeling.
I put my head back on the pillow to watch her in awe as my touch makes her cheeks flush and pleasure shows on her face.
As I study her, I use my other hand to pull the pillow from under my head so that my head is now lying flat on the mattress.
I let go of Emily's breast and bring both hands up to cup her face as she opens her eyes again.

I look at her for a moment, her gaze seems to caress me without touching me.
"I'm sure, Darling." I breathe and pull her face towards me to close the gap.
We kiss gently, calmly, lovingly.
For a moment there is only us, the world stops and I simply enjoy her soft lips on mine.

When we both desperately need to breathe, we separate and she looks at me lovingly, tears in her eyes.
The lustful mood has given way to sudden intimacy, real, honest intimacy.

"I really missed you, Y/N." She whispers and I have to hold back the tears that well up in my eyes.

Her facial expression tells me that she went through hell in my absence.

We were both trapped in hell, each in our own way. Each of us lonely, unsure if we could escape.

I notice a hint of sadness, fear and desperation in her eyes and can only imagine how these feelings had a complete grip on her during that time.

"I'm right here," I say quietly and stroke her cheek.
She leans into the touch with a sigh and Tears glisten in her dark, beautiful eyes.

We look at each other for a moment and a painful knot of fear gathers in my throat.

I could have lost her, if I hadn't gotten out of that basement alive.
I would never have seen her again.
And she was afraid for me, she thought she would lose me.

I remember the look in her eyes when she saw me in the hospital.
The pain I saw in her eyes.
I can't do that to her again...

This thought totally catches me off guard.
Before I start crying, I try to steer the mood in a different direction.
I look down and admire her naked body pressed against mine and the pleasure comes back and hits me like a Wave.

"Let me show you how much I missed you." I suggest with a grin and she raises her eyebrows, surprised at the change of subject, but thoroughly impressed.

She sits up and is now straddling my lap, while watching me me uncertainly.
With my lower lip caught in my teeth, I look at her breasts and a soft sigh leaves my lips.

I love the sight of Emily naked in front of me.

"But, Y/N. What if I hurt you?" She asks, still skeptical, but her eyes reveal that the idea actually turns her on.
I turn my gaze up to the ceiling and pat my hands next to my head invitingly.
"I want to taste you, Darling." I announce without looking at her and hope that my suggestive boldness will finally convince her.
As she slowly lifts herself up, I slide under her a little to give her more space.
She slowly slides forward on her knees until she's next to my head, her core hovering just above my face.