Wildfire And Rain

Chapter Thirty-Seven

"Kai?"

Kai's heart responds to the voice before anything else of him does. It sinks to his stomach and immediately jumps back to his throat. He slowly raises his head from the table, pausing for a few second before his eyes skeptically glance towards the door.

His heart clenches painfully, maybe even more than his headache. "Taehyun. "He blurts out, and his voice breaks.

The familiar click is heard, the sound of two longing sets of eyes staring into one another. Kai simply cannot take his eyes off Taehyun, even if he tried, he worries it could kill him.

"Taehyun... I didn't- I didn't-"

"Taehyun! Please, listen to me!"

His own voice rings loud in his ears as his eyes trail over every detail in Taehyun's face, every lash, every red hair that falls on his forehead. He feels something strange in his eyes; coating his lash line.

"Taehyun!"

"Kai, what- what is this?"

"I didn't- I didn't-"

He didn't know how much he needed Taehyun to say his name again until this very moment.

But Taehyun hates Kai now. Kai broke Taehyun's trust, the one person who seemed like he cared. Kai ruined that too, didn't he?

He ruins everything. Everyone.

"Hi." Taehyun greets, his voice is thick with tears. Kai did that. He made the redhead cry; he is the reason his eyes are red and swollen because he just can't get enough. He can't be good for Taehyun, he can't.

But he didn't kill Mr. Harrison.

And he can... he can try to be good. Isn't that enough? He wants to be good if that means keeping Taehyun around. But he should stay away.

He doesn't want to, but he should.

Can he be good? Is there a guarantee that his fire won't burn Taehyun?

He didn't kill him.

He didn't kill.

And Kai just wants to be held again. Wants to be told that everything will be fine but Taehyun already knows Kai is a bad person.

Taehyun believes Kai is a bad person. How could Kai ask him to return to the way they were? When he is the one who was careless enough to ruin everything?

"Don't cry... "Taehyun says, his eyes are shining so beautifully with the tears that Kai caused.

The pain that shoots through his heart is too much for him to handle, he's never felt this way before. Like his heart is breaking into a million shards and it's almost enough for Kai to feel like he is dying.

It's close.

Too painful that it's impossible to keep it all inside. It spills from his eyes, hot and wet tears pouring on his face. It's sticky and confusing.

He gets on his knees, his body moving before his brain does. He looks up at the redhead, his face contorting in pain. "I didn't do it... "he cries, letting his head fall on Taehyun's leg. Kai's heart drains and it is almost like he's in physical pain. He's never felt that way before. "Taehyun, please... "

Someone slashes his heart from the inside and he's not sure how to stop it.

His dark eyes are yielding, begging for Taehyun to believe him and the redhead looks at him with alarm. "Please, please believe me. Please, Taehyun... I swear on everything I have; I swear on the earths. I didn't kill him, I swear. I swear-"