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BREAK

I have been living my life in fear. Ever since I was a child I never had a good environment at home. I never had parents to run to. I never had a mother to braid my hair whenever I ask her to. I never had people whom I would like to look up to. And I never had a father to protect me from people whom I think would hurt me.

I lived my life thinking I was all alone.

It had change. A little. It did change a little when Ryuji came. He let me breath from everything. He freed me from the cage I've been jailing myself into. He gaves me peace I wished I had ever since. He... Made me feel loved. And it was truly beautiful. It was really wholesome. It was my sanctuary. He was my sanctuary.

My wish of forever.

But ended up short lived.

"Dad," I called as I entered his office at home. He called for a talk, and I was preparing myself for the worst to happen.

It had been weeks since the last time I saw them arguing. I have been doing fine lately, but my mother's state keeps on bothering me.

I have been declining invitations from Ryuji for a date dahil umuuwi ako ng maaga para lang talaga maalagaan ang mommy. She was sick, and wouldn't even utter a word for me. Kapag may gusto sya tinuturo nya lang. It was like she was out from her senses, at ayaw nya ng magsalita dahil napapagod na sya.

I am worried sick about her and my dad calling me for a talk isn't helping.

Ryuji understands it though he would always tell me to spend a little time with him. Kalagitnaan narin nang pagaayos namin sa lahat ng requirements namin para makamove sa grade twelve.

"Take a seat, Aurora Celestia," he demanded.

I took a seat and breath deeply to calm myself.

Whatever or wherever this talk could lead to, sana hindi ako mawalan ng respeto.

"May problema  po ba kayo ni mommy? She's been sick for almost a month now, and you're not coming home frequently. Is there a problem, Dad?" Mahinahon kong tanong. Kahit naman na alam kong meron, nagtatanong pa rin ako, gusto kong mangapa. Kung may makakapa ba ako. A part of want to believe that this is just a fight between the two of them, kahit salungat ang nakikita ko.

"Your mother and I are fine. Don't worry about it," What a lie, father! " What I want you to worry about is your relationship with that Dela Cuesta. What is up to the both of you?" Oh fucking crap.

"I can't help myself not to worry about Mom, Dad. Why is she acting that way?" I dismissed his question.

"I am asking you, Aurora," he said sternly.

I gulped.

I don't know what to answer. Should I say we are a thing? Should I say we are in a relationship? Should I? But... What are the possible consequences I'll face if I do?

Minutes passed and I didn't answer.

"To make it straight to the point. I don't want you to be involve with that boy," he seriously said.

I was taken aback. He doesn't want what?

Pero... "D-dad w-what do you mean?" I fucking sttutered!

"If it's not clear with you. I want you to stop whatever you and that boy have, Aurora." He leaned on his desk and clasped his hand together. "I know I told you to go get closer with that boy, and you did! It was that at first but things gets out of hand. Let that guy go." He said, remorse didn't even flashed as his emotion.

Gusto kong murahin ang ama ko. I didn't had the relationship I have with Ryuji now just because he said so! Ni hindi ko naisip ang mukha ng tatay ko nang sinagot ko si Ryuji, e!