stars will fall - byler

.15

i slowly opened my eyes as the morning sun rays shined through the window and illuminated my face. i felt arms around me, bringing warmth and comfort to my body. i smiled as i felt my heart melt of love. i turned my head and gasped when i saw Will wrapped around me.. he looked up at me with his gorgeous eyes that could hardly stay open.
-"whats wrong?" he tiredly mumbled.
he moved the hair out of my eyes with his fingers, rubbing his thumb against my cheek. everything about this felt so safe, i felt like i was meant to be here. i was home.
-"nothings wrong.."
my body felt like it was floating when wills lips pressed against mine. it was a feeling i could only ever dream of. nothing about this was wrong, it couldn't have been more right.
-"mike?" he mumbled with his hands on my chest. i looked into his green eyes that stood a few inches from me.

-"mike!"
i shot up from my bed, gasping from the dream i just had. i looked around and saw el and max standing in my doorway.
-"what?" i groaned and wiped my eyes.
-"dude, it's 6 pm. get your ass up, we're going to the fair." max complained.
i checked my watch and realized i overslept my nap. i got out of bed and kicked them out of my room to get dressed. as i threw on clothes, i was still shaken up from the dream i just had. it felt so vivid and real..
but the thought of it brought a smile to my face.
-"mike, we're going to leave you here!" dustin screamed from downstairs.
-"i'm coming!"

i threw on a pair of shoes and walked down the stairs to where all of my friends were. all except for will, of course.
once we got in the car, i sat in the back with el. she pressed her hand on mine and i almost felt shock. i looked at her weirdly and i could tell she noticed, but i just held her hand and threw on a weak smile. it felt weird to be with el now because of how i feel with will, but i can't just throw away something so perfect for someone that hates me.

once i realized we were heading the opposite direction of his house, i knew he wasn't going with us.
-"uh, is will coming?" i announced.
-"i don't think so." el answered.
-"i tried to convince him on the phone but he wasn't very clear." max added from behind the wheel.
-"yeah, he hasn't been showing up to work. Billy is talking about letting him go." lucas mentioned.
-"really?" i scrunched my forehead worriedly.
-"aren't you and will still in a fight?" dustin asked from next to me, silencing the whole car as they waited for me to answer.
-"i don't know.. we haven't talked since the accident." i mumbled under my breath. the attention was pulled away from me when we arrived to the fair. the big Fun Fair sign shined as we parked in the grass. el grabbed my arm and walked with me as we all entered. the smile on her face when she gripped onto me made me felt a little shame. i felt shameful that i didn't love her like i did anymore, i wish i did.
i wish i didn't like will because it makes things so complicated. i wish my feelings for him didn't exist.
things would be so much easier.
it's been 4 days since the accident and i've been an anxious reck. nobody has seen will since then, he's avoiding us again. but since it's the fourth of july, i thought he'd finally come out. i hope he's okay.

-"do you want to go on the ferris wheel?" el whispered as she began to pull me away.
-"you know i don't like heights!" i mumbled.
-"it's fine!" she giggled as she dragged me in line.
i groaned in annoyance as she pulled me into a seat. she let go of my hand as the worker secured the seat before we started to move. heights were my number one greatest fear and it always has been, it aggravated me that el didn't seem to care.
i closed my eyes and held onto the pole tightly and i heard els giggles from beside me.
-"mike, don't be dramatic. it's not that bad, see?" she turned my head and i looked down and saw that we were already all the way at the top. the view from above ground almost made me feel sick. i immediately snapped my head back and closed my eyes again.
-"don't be a bitch!" lucas shouted from the other passenger tube behind us.
-"fuck you." i mumbled as my eyes squeezed shut. i felt els hand press on mine which made me jump. i tried to bring my mind to a happy place as i waited for this moment to be over. my mind brought me to a memory that i liked to often think about..