stars will fall - byler

.27

~ 3 weeks prior ~
- Mikes POV -

i shut the both of us inside my bedroom and faced will behind the door.
-"wait here, i'll be back. lock the door behind me." i whispered before turning the door handle next to us.
-"wait." he pulled my shoulder back as i cracked the door open.
-"are you going to.."
-"yeah." i hesitantly nodded before closing the door, leaving him alone in the room.
i take a deep breath before walking downstairs and seeing el at the front door, smiling to greet me.
-"hey." she reached her arms over my shoulders and kissed me.
-"i'm sorry, i completely forgot you were coming over." i nervously chuckled.
-"it's fine." she ran her fingers through my wet hair before kissing my lips again. i let her kiss me, knowing it was the last time.
-"el, wait.." i whispered as i eventually pulled away. she looked up at me with those soft brown eyes of hers. they gazed into my eyes with such love and sparkle, how could i do this to her? how could i ruin the way she looks at me? she loves me so much.. and i still have a soft spot for her. i can't do this..
-"i'm actually about to head out.. i have to work. but i'll see you tonight at lucas's right?"
-"you just begged me last night to come over.." she complained.
-"i know, i know. i'm sorry, i can come over sometime tomorrow.. alright? and i'll see you at tonight."
-"fine.. i'll see you later." she kissed my cheek before walking out, her long brown hair bouncing with each step she took.
i let out a huge breath when she walked out.
what was i going to tell will? he'll be devastated that i didn't break up with her..
i did mean what i said last night, he's my first choice. but i can't hurt el like that, she's still special to me.
i can't tell him. what he doesn't know won't hurt him

LATER

i walk into lucas's backyard and saw el and max sitting at the chairs next to the fireplace while laughing. el immediately stood up when she saw me and jogged my way, hugging me and dragging me over.
-"hey, mike." max waved as i sat down next to el.
-"is will coming? did anyone even invite him?" el asked the rest of us.
-"i'm pretty sure he's at troys." i casually brought up, trying not to make it obvious that i knew.
-"seriously? wills been put under a spell if he truly enjoys being around that guy." lucas commented.
-"stop! he's happy, let him be." max nudged him with her foot.
but he wasn't, and i was the only one who knew that.

we had been together in front of the fire for nearly an hour, i was getting worried that will still wasn't here. he should've been here by now. i hope troy didn't do anything to hurt him.
-"you okay?" el whispered from my lap.
-"yeah, can you get up real quick? i have to go to the bathroom." i nudged her off of me before making my way inside through the sliding glass doors. i walked across the living room and found my way towards the bathroom.

as i was washing my hands, i heard banging on the door making me jump.
-"i'm in here!"
-"hurry up, nerd!" erica's annoying voice sounded through the door.
i dried my hands and twisted the knob, seeing her waiting in front of me.
-"what are you looking at, froggy?" she commented before walking past me into the bathroom.
ive always hated that little shit.
i walked outside and my feet stopped moving when i saw will was now here.
i didn't even really think about how el and will would both be here with me.. what do i do about el?
-"will, hey! you're here." i chuckled.
-"yeah.."
the look on his face looked off.. did something happen with troy?
i walked over between Lucas and will and sat down in a seat, glancing over at el and seeing a confused look on her face. i just ignored her and avoided eye contact, focusing on anything else but el.

-"dude, you burnt it!" i scolded dustin, making fun of his marshmallow that caught on fire.
-"look at yours! you barely toasted it." he fired back.
-"yours looks like it's about to fall into ashes!" lucas piled on.
-"i'll be back.." will mumbled as he stood up and began walking inside.
i could tell something was wrong by the look on his face. as my friends continued laughing and making fun of each other, i stood up and followed will inside without my friends noticing.
i looked around the kitchen or living room and didn't see him. i walked down the hallway and saw the bathroom light pearing under the door. i walked over and lightly knocked on the door.
the door swung open and my eyes were quickly met with wills. he looked different..
-"are you okay?" i asked.
-"yeah.."
-"how did it go with troy?" i hesitated to ask.
-"good. he took it well." he nodded smiling.
-"that's good.."
i couldn't look at him without thinking about the reaction he'd have to el and i.. i'm letting him down. i don't know if i can balance the two of them without them finding out.
-"are you okay? you seem on edge." he pointed out.
-"yeah, of course. i've just been really worried about you." i weakly smiled, avoiding the truth.
he stood there, looking at me with those beautiful green eyes that made me feel like i was floating in the sky.. he looked so beautiful, it made me feel sick.
he threw himself in my arms, hugging me tightly. i leaned my face into his neck, making my heart feel warm as i squeezed his waist.
i love him so much, i don't want to hurt him. i just can't let him find out.