stars will fall - byler

.16

i pressed my hand against els knee as our lips connected. we sat at the end of my bed kissing for a while. i wasn't planning on having her over, but she just showed up unannounced. she had woke me up and been here all morning, i was just counting down the minutes until 12. she slowly pulled away and looked at me with a grin on her face.
-"i missed you." she whispered.
-"yeah, me too." i awkwardly nodded.
-"it feels like i haven't seen you in forever. what have you been doing?"
i'm afraid she won't be very happy if i told her the truth.. so i lied.
-"just.. trying to learn more on the guitar." i lied.
-"oh.. for a whole week? i mean, we haven't really hung out since july 4th." she questioned.
-"yeah. it's really time consuming." i panicked before leaning back in to kiss her.

as we were kissing, i felt my watch vibrate. i flipped my wrist up and saw it was finally 12. i immediately pulled my lips off of els and stood up from my bed.
-"sorry, el. you have to go."
-"what.. why?" she stood up slowly after me.
-"i have to go.. take holly back to school shopping." i lied.
-"cant i just come with? i love shopping." she smiled brightly.
-"i'm sorry, she just gets really shy. maybe next time. i'll drive you home before i take her." i took her hand and dragged her down the stairs and began walking to the car.

i pulled up to her house and unlocked the door.
-"i love you, thanks for today." she kissed my cheek.
-"yeah.. for sure. i love you too." i hesitated to say it back. she opened the car door and began walking towards her house.
if felt wrong to tell her that i loved her now. i'm secretly macking Will and she has no idea,
nobody does.
it was weird for her to be living in the Byers old home. every time i come over i get overwhelmed in old memories, that's why she's always usually at my house. 
i pulled my car out of park and began leaving the driveway. when i reached the main road, i drove the opposite way of home. but to someone else's home.

i parked my car down the road like i was told to and began walking up the driveway. i knocked on the front door of the trailer, hoping i was at the right one. i was quickly met with Will on the other side. i was taken aback when he pulled me inside quickly by my shirt and slammed the door behind us. his lips immediately met mine and i could feel a smirk forming in the corners of his lips. he ran his fingers through my hair desperately as he deeply sank into my lips.
-"damn, missed me that much?" i chuckled.
-"sorry, it's been a while." he laughed as he took my hand and walked me down the hall.
-"i just saw you last night."
-"exactly." he smiled as he turned around to look at me. when we made it to his room, i noticed that he had no door.
-"where's your door?" i traced my hands against the doorway as i walked in. before he could answer i saw his door against the wall inside his room with chipped paint, large dents and holes. it looked like someone had beaten it down. i looked back at his face and traced my fingers lightly on the healing scabs on his face.
-"does this have to do with your dad?" i whispered. he immediately looked down at his feet and began walking deeper into his room.
-"can we finally talk about it? what he did to you?"
-"i never said it was him." will muttered as he sat down on his bed.
-"who else would it have been, will?"
he nervously fidgeted with the bottom of his shirt as he sat there in silence. i sat down next to him and pressed my hand on his knee comfortingly.
-"you can talk to me, will." i assured him, looking at him as he stared down. he glanced at me and looked back down as he took a deep breath.
-"when my father found out how much damage he had to pay for from the accident.. he wasn't very happy."
-"how much?"
-"let's just say it was a lot of money." he chuckled.
-"i'm so sorry, will. this is all of my fault. i shouldn't have let you take the blame. you know that, i'm going to turn myself in and i'll pay the amount d-"
-"mike, stop! i did what i did for a reason." he held onto my hand to get me to stop talking.
-"you have plans for your future. you want to go to college and pursue music, right?"
i nodded.
-"i don't have those kinds of plans. i didn't want you to get in trouble with your parents. they would've taken it out of your college funds.. that's not fair to you. you have much more to lose than i do.." he assured me.
-"he hurt you.. because of me." i traced my hand on his beat up face.
-"it's nothing that hasn't happened before." he commented while looking down at his hands.
-"will.. what can i do to help? is there anything i can do?" i scooted closer to him. he slowly shook his head as he looked back at me.
-"i just have to wait it out until i can finally leave." he sighed.
-"will.. i don't think i like the idea of you living here. what if things get way out of hand one day? you could get seriously hurt.." i mumbled, feeling tears forming in my eyes. he looked down at his hands and i could tell he wanted to cry too. i moved his hair out of his face with my fingers and made him look over at me.
-"i want you to feel safe." i whispered.
his eyes were full of sorrow as he looked up at me. but a weak smile appeared on his face after a long moment.
-"i feel safe with you right now." he mumbled as he slowly leaned into my lips, softly kissing them. my hand trailed over the side of his face as i kissed him back. his lips were such a sweet feeling against mine. the longer we kissed, the more uncomfortable i got with the little privacy.
-"okay, i'm going to put this door back up for you." i stood up from his bed and grabbed his door.
-"you sure?"
-"yep, i don't need anyone to find us." i laughed as i walked out of his bedroom to find tools.

...

i rubbed my hands together and wiped the sweat from my forehead once i finished reconnecting the door to its hinges.
-"all done! now we have some privacy." i flew onto his bed, making him laugh.
-"thank you." he wrapped his arms over my shoulders as we glared into each others eyes.
-"why didn't jonathan help you put it back up?" i questioned as his lips were nearly touching mine.
-"i don't know.. somethings going on with him." he says as he slowly backs away to explain.
-"he's been staying in his room all day and hasn't left the house much for a few weeks now. do you think it has anything to do with nancy?" he sat with his legs crossed as he faced me.
-"oh.. you don't know?" i gritted my teeth.
-"know what?"
-"nancy sorta.. cheated on him." i shamefully admit.
-"what?? with who?"
-"steve.."
-"steve?!" he shrieked.
-"yeah.."
-"holy shit. no wonder he's been so distant. why didn't you tell me?" he lightly pushed my shoulder.
-"sorry! i thought you knew." i chuckled as he pulled me in closer and kissed my lips. his lips were so soft and the longer we kissed, the more flutters i felt in my stomach. the feeling when kissing him was so unimaginable and euphoric. i never would've thought i'd be here a few months ago.. but now i can't imagine life without this.
this was my life now and i couldn't feel more blessed.