stars will fall - byler

.21

my parents left for chicago earlier for some work trip and nancy was staying the night at steve's, so i ate leftover pizza from dinner earlier. i was curious to why el didn't go to my show tonight, she seemed mad earlier but she always shows up. max was arguing with me about el before the show, she said i was hiding something. which i am, but they can't know about that.
i walked to the kitchen phone and dialed her number, seeing the time was only 10.
it rung multiple times before i heard her voice on the other side.
-"hello?" she mumbled tiredly.
-"el? hey." i chuckled.
-"what mike? i was sleeping."
-"where were you? you didn't show up."
-"sorry, something came up."

something came up?

-"oh, okay. are you-" i stopped talking when i felt a stuffed animal hit me in the back. i turned around and saw holly around the corner and she ran when she saw me.
-"go to bed, holly!" i screamed while covering the phone. i put it back up to my ear.
-"i'm going back to bed." she groaned.
-"no, wait! i'm sorry i've been so distant."

i heard the doorbell ring and got annoyed, putting my hand over the phone.
-"holly, get the door!" i screamed.
-"can you come over tomorrow afternoon?" i asked through the phone.
-"fine. i love you."
the doorbell consistently rang over and over, making me rush the call.
-"i have to go, good night."
i slammed the phone back and began walking towards the hallway where i saw holly running up the stairs and laughing.
-"i told you to get the door, you little shit!" i groaned angrily before opening the door and seeing Will standing across from me. he looked up from the ground and his eyes were swollen and his cheeks soaked in tears. his bloody lip trembled as he tried to speak.
-"will?"
-"i didn't know where else to go.. lonnie kicked me out." he held back cries.
i let him inside and pulled him into my arms as he began sobbing into my chest, shaking uncontrollably.. i didn't know what to do.
-"go up to my room and i'll meet you there, okay?" i whispered and moved the hair out of his eyes. he nodded before wiping his tears and walking past me. i watched him slowly walk up the stairs and holly came storming down still laughing but she stopped when she saw wills face.
-"what's going on?"she asked me when he disappeared past the corner.
-"holly, please just go to your room and watch tv or something, okay?" i stressfully rubbed my face while nudging her back up the stairs. once i saw her turn the corner, i walked to the kitchen and grabbed a bottled water.

i walked into my bedroom and saw will sitting at the end of my bed, crying into his hands. he looked up and wiped his tears away when he heard my bedroom door shut. i walked over to him and handed him the water before sitting down across from him.
-"what happened, will?"
just as i had asked that, he began crying again. he hid his face in his hands and tried to compose himself.
-"i can't even say it.. it's bad." he cried.
-"you can tell me, will." i reassure him.
-"you're going to look at me differently.."
-"i promise i won't. i won't judge you, whatever it is you did." i scooted over to sit by his side. he looked into my eyes and hesitated to speak. i pressed my hand on his knee as i waited. he took a deep breath.
-"troy came over and.. he wanted me to do shit to him. i tried to say no but he threatened to break up with me and i had no other choice.. i was weak."
-"will.."
-"i was too much of a fucking pussy to tell him to get out, i should've said no. i feel so disgusting.. God, i hate myself." he began to sob into his own arms. i pulled him in towards me and let him cry into my chest, hugging him tightly. my eyes teared up thinking about what he told me.. what troys doing is sexual harassment and will doesn't even realize it.
will is so sweet and innocent, troy took that away from him. why can't will just leave him? what's holding him back?
-"it's not your fault, will.. it's going to be okay." i rubbed his arm before he sat back up and looked into his hands.
-"and then my dad walked in. he was so angry i thought he was actually going to kill me. he had a murderous look in his eyes.. and troy just ran out the window. he punched me once, then threw me out the door and told me to never come back." he explained once he was calmer, pointing at his busted lip.
-"i'm so sorry, will. you can stay here as long as you'd like." i wrapped my arm around his shoulder from by his side. he wiped his eyes and looked over at me.
-"thank you." he quietly mumbled before leaning his head against my shoulder.
it made me so angry that troy was doing this to him, he doesn't deserve will. i love will more than troy ever could, i wish i could tell him. it angers me that hes with troy in general, i don't like to sharing. now i know how will feels about el.
-"can i ask you a question?"
he lifted his head and looked at me with tearful eyes.
-"why are you still with troy? he doesn't love you, will.. he's just using you."
-"i don't know.." he sighed. -"you're still with el.. it's hard to see you guys together. i don't want to be the only one putting our relationship first." he explained
-"i do put our relationship first.
-"no you don't." he chuckled.
-"of course i do, will. i'm with you a lot more than i am with el."
-"but you love her, mike. you've been together years, she's your first love. she's beautiful and sweet and she's a girl.. she's your first choice."
-"will.."
-"you love her, so you should be with her. only her, i'm just in the way of you guys." he stood up and began to walk towards the door.
-"where are you going?" i felt tears form in my eyes.
-"i don't know." his voice cracked as he looked back at me, standing next to my bed.
he walked out of the door, leaving me alone in the room.
did he just break up with me? i can't believe this..
i can't let him break up with me, i can't let him leave.

i bolted down the hallway and jumped down the stairs, swinging open the front door and seeing him sobbing while walking to his car. he turned around and wiped his tears away quickly.
-"mike, go back inside." he sighed as i ran up to him.
-"will, please stop. please don't go." i begged with tears falling from my eyes.
-"mike, i have to." he cried.
-"no, you don't! will, you are my first choice! you've always been my first choice! you make me the happiest! you know the real me! not el.. God, Will. I love you so much." i cried out, seeing his facial expression drop.
-"you love me..?" tears flooded his face as he scrunched his face.
-"yes, will! i've never loved someone as much as i love you, you really have no idea, will. i need you more than anything, so you can't leave.." my voice cracked as i walked closer to him.
-"please, will.. don't leave." i cried as our lips hovered each other. i kissed him with such need and love, tears streaming down both our faces. we pulled away and cries slipped out of our mouths as our heads pressed together.
-"i love you.." he whispered, bringing a smile to my face. i hugged him tightly, wrapping my arms around his shoulders and quietly crying in his arms.

my heart was so full in this moment, so full of love and happiness.. i've never felt this way with el. ever.
he's the one.